Discussion Topic
How I have dealt with Bipolar..since being diagnosed in1994..
Posted on 11/04/09, 02:30 pm
It seems so long ago since I was first diagnosed..I remind myself just how far I have come by going back in my Journal.as I have kept a Journal for years.Way before I was diagnosed with B.P.
Hi, my name is Janet, married for 32yrs..2 sons ages 31 & 27..both maried and 5 beautiful Grandchildren..( b)12, (g)8,(g)6, (g)-2,(b)-1
I was 35yrs old when I was first diagnosed with B.P. but most of my life from the time I was a child up until this time.I always felt different from my siblings.and always wandered why My parents seem to keep a close eye on me..treating me differently then all others..I grew up in a house of 3 older sisters, 1 older brohter, and 2 younger sisters( twins)..we were all raised on a farm.Lots of hard work..
My parents Never got along.theere was not a day that did not go by where Dad was not yelling at mom for something.I grew to detest the man..walking on egg shells desribes how I felt daily around him..
I left home at age 16. knowing I just could not take it any more..
and I vowed I would never return to live..and I never..I walked to town .middle of Night escape..with a neighbor girl who also wanted to get out of her sick situation..
I had High hopes of living a far better life..I did not have alot of confidense in myself, concentration level was low, focusing.was bad..and this led me into the next..1 1/2 yrs of giving myself to men..in asexual way, drinking excessive amounts of alcohol.and expereincing into drugs..
I met my Now husband of 32yrs ..as he was drinving down main street of our city.adn he said ti was not the first time he Noticed me.e said I looked lost, lonely, dark circles under my eyes,,and so spaced out..He stopped and picked me up...and that was the beginning of a new Chapter in mY life
I thank My husband daily for Stopping and Caring..
Skipping a few yrs..It was 1994, that I had a mental breakdown..and landed in the Phyc..Center..for 10 day s to 2 weeks..This is when I was diagnosed with Manic depression..now called Bipolar..I was placed on Lithiumn-fairly heavy dosage..and ahd to go for Blood work often..I was on this medication for 8yrs..and then because of complications with meds..I was placed On Divolprovex..( Epivel for short)..This medication works excellent for me..
I was in in tense therapy for 8yrs..and when I look back, I look with very few refrets..becasue if I did not live this Life( my past) I would not be the woman I am today!!!..
Hi, my name is Janet, married for 32yrs..2 sons ages 31 & 27..both maried and 5 beautiful Grandchildren..( b)12, (g)8,(g)6, (g)-2,(b)-1
I was 35yrs old when I was first diagnosed with B.P. but most of my life from the time I was a child up until this time.I always felt different from my siblings.and always wandered why My parents seem to keep a close eye on me..treating me differently then all others..I grew up in a house of 3 older sisters, 1 older brohter, and 2 younger sisters( twins)..we were all raised on a farm.Lots of hard work..
My parents Never got along.theere was not a day that did not go by where Dad was not yelling at mom for something.I grew to detest the man..walking on egg shells desribes how I felt daily around him..
I left home at age 16. knowing I just could not take it any more..
and I vowed I would never return to live..and I never..I walked to town .middle of Night escape..with a neighbor girl who also wanted to get out of her sick situation..
I had High hopes of living a far better life..I did not have alot of confidense in myself, concentration level was low, focusing.was bad..and this led me into the next..1 1/2 yrs of giving myself to men..in asexual way, drinking excessive amounts of alcohol.and expereincing into drugs..
I met my Now husband of 32yrs ..as he was drinving down main street of our city.adn he said ti was not the first time he Noticed me.e said I looked lost, lonely, dark circles under my eyes,,and so spaced out..He stopped and picked me up...and that was the beginning of a new Chapter in mY life
I thank My husband daily for Stopping and Caring..
Skipping a few yrs..It was 1994, that I had a mental breakdown..and landed in the Phyc..Center..for 10 day s to 2 weeks..This is when I was diagnosed with Manic depression..now called Bipolar..I was placed on Lithiumn-fairly heavy dosage..and ahd to go for Blood work often..I was on this medication for 8yrs..and then because of complications with meds..I was placed On Divolprovex..( Epivel for short)..This medication works excellent for me..
I was in in tense therapy for 8yrs..and when I look back, I look with very few refrets..becasue if I did not live this Life( my past) I would not be the woman I am today!!!..
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Reply #1 11/05/09 9:13am
Wow. You are so strong. I hope that I can one day be as strong as you. -
Reply #2 11/07/09 2:45am
I left when I was fifteen...almost the same age as you...but i did it differently...i was forced back home for a while. my dad is bp as well but he doesn't take meds. we suffered a lot of abuse under him. i did not meet a great man who cared. i met a man who cared for a whie then started to hate me. i hope he leaves soon so i can get on with my life. i hope my three kids still love me when they are older. you are a tough girl. i am proud of you. i am glad you don't have a lot of regrets adn some beautiful grandkids. good for you!
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