hey ms bey bey

i have a sister who is going through what appears like some serious stuff i tell you what it is and let you tell me my sister is one year younger than i even though she acts as if she the older she has this serious rage and is extremely possesive of my she will do things for me and if i dont do what she wants even when she doesnt know what she wants she screams become manipulative she will bait you into a conversation and if you express your opinion and it contradicts hers she will call another sister and tell her neiecey told me this about you or she doesnt want us to be close anything she can do to discredit me she does to my kids other sibling even in church she has tried to undermine me i have forgiven her so many time she will hang up on the phone just for me telling her i want to be positive and i want my mind to stay unburden she gets angry call another friend and then says that i wont let her vent and how wrong she feels i am then she goes to person after person rehearse it and everything keep getting back to me i love my sister but to be honest i dont really like her and if we werent related she would not be the type of female i would deal with my sister compares herself to me in almost every situation she tries to outbuy dress there is so much competition on her side that i couldnt even tell her i was going to get something without her trying to beat me to the punch to get it ms bey we are not kids we are in our forties and i am tired ms bey one time my supervisor was going to buy me something for my birthday so my sister and i went to the store i put the outfit on hold till i could tell my supervisor what it cost why did she go behind my back and buy the outfit with my name on a hold ticket and never mentioned it to me even though i told her how upset that the store didnt hold my item she never mentioned to me until i saw her with the outfit and all she did then was laugh iwas so stupid i didnt even know i had a right to be upset my sister has been like a cancer to me if i grow close or me and another sister are hanging out more she created arguments i mean screaming matches in public restuarants over her perceived abandonment by me because my other sister and i are too chummy in her eyes i dont think i have ever written to anyone i have often been too ashamed because things just keep happening and due to her health reasons i am afraid to just not deal with she is also a hypochondriac she does have some real serious illnessess but she will grab hold to any diagnosis some one my say they thinks she has and will tell everyone the next week i got this particular disorder or disease i want desperately to be in peace but my sister on the scene will never and did i say never permit i know i sound whiny but i am at the end of my rope with this girl i avoid her because you cant be honest with her she has such a lound voice that when she talks everyone looks in our direction my husband tells me why do you sit and hold the phone when you know you dont want to gossip and be negative why dont you hand the phone my reply is i dont know i just usually sit the phone down and make her think i am listening all she does is talk about everybody by the time you get off the phone with her i feel the weight of the world is on my shoulders and nothing feels very good i would appreciate you honest opinion and any assistance you can provide also what does it mean when a person doesnt dream or never remembers them the only time i could remember my dreams were when i was heavily medicated thanks