greaterishe

daily stuggle

Posted on 01/31/09, 11:29 pm

i have been gambling on horses for 15 years now. i quit as of 1-1-09. it is a stuggle everyday. i am so glad that now i have somewhere to come and share my story, and have support. this demon has haunted me every since i statrted working for an off track parlor. in 15 years i cannot count the money i have lost. the last straw came when i gambled away my whole check. the nxt day my son needed five dollars for school. i did not have it. i could not even borrow it because i am borrowed out. that day i asked the lord for help. i have not gambled since. it hard, but in this month i have had a wonderful time. when i get weak, i pulled out the newspaper article about the man that shot himself sitting a a blackjack table. the casino went on as business as usual. they will never get another dime of my money.

• Reply #1 01/31/09  11:52pm
  
  purplecat
  It is a daily struggle, but it is well worth the fight to stay gamble free. I know all about not having a couple bucks for the kids. It makes you feel horrible and useless. But I also know there is life after gambling that can be amazing and wonderful. It sounds as if you are already discovering this for yourself. Congrats on the month you have gone so far, Thank you for sharing a bit of your story, glad to have you here.
• Reply #2 02/01/09  10:14am
  
  emptyluck
  Keep the reasons why you quit Fresh in your head like you are doing. I think not having that 5 bucks for the your child is a big one. I had been there. I am on 3mths Gamble Free and I have been in a transition of my life but enjoying the clear, guilt free life now. Hang in there. It is so worth it. Outstanding
• Reply #3 02/03/09  1:33am
  
  booker79
  It is a daily struggle. All we have is today so all we can live for is today! One day at a time! Take it slow. It works if we work it!
• Reply #4 02/03/09  4:44pm
  
  Auzgurl
  Dear friend, welcome!
  Congrats on having the guts and determination to stop gambling. You are doing this one day at a time. it's the only way - there are some sad stories out there and statistics. I too didn't want to be one of them.
  Thank you for posting and keep coming back - hugs Suzi
• Reply #5 02/05/09  10:51pm
  
  greaterishe
  thanks you guys for all your help. been 38 days now. this weekend is big. lot of big races. i am going to need your prayers. would not have known if one of my old buddies hadn't called me to tell me about the big races. even after i told him that i have quit, he stills calls me with this temptation. i am going to fight it. b ut the urge is great. pray for me.
• Reply #6 02/06/09  4:43pm
  
  serenityseeker
  I will pray for you. Prayer can really help, especially if there are several people praying for the same thing.
  All of us here, have been where you are and fighting that fight is so hard...but can be done. When I am in that struggle I really try to remind myself of the serenity that comes with staying GF. Life may not be all I wish it could be, but it is definitely better than with gambling in it. Also after gambling for years, using it to numb feelings....really feeling my feelings is new and hard to deal with at times, but can be done.
  My serenity is worth putting up a good fight.
  Praying for you.
• Reply #7 02/06/09  5:13pm
  
  greaterishe
  thank you for that serenity. i need prayer. keep praying for me. together we will claim the victory.

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