Tinnitus, "ringing ears" or ear noise is a phenomenon of the nervous system connected to the ear, characterised by perception of a ringing, beating or roaring sound (often perceive...
TODAY IS MY 28TH BIRTHDAY AND I AM SOO ANGRY. I FEEL LIKE BREAKING SOMETHING. I AM IN SOOO MUCH PAIN. THESE FUCKIN GODDMENED PILLLS AINT FUCKIN MY LIFE. MY LIFE FEELS RUINED. I HAD ENOUGH. I EXPLODED AT MY MOMS CUZ I JUST HAD IT. I GOT SAD LOOKIN AT HER SAD. I JUST CAN'T GO OUT CUZ OF TOO MUCH PAIN. I AM HAVING NERVOSU BREAK DOWNS. FUCKIN ER CAN'T DO SHIT CUZ IN THE PAST THEY NEVER SO I C...
I had extensive work done on my car 2 months ago by a friend of my sister. He has a maintenance garage. One of the things he claimed to have changed was the timing belt and water pump. Yesterday my car quit next to a garage so I coasted in and they looked at it today and the bad news is it has a broken timing belt and needs a new water pump. The mechanic tells me they are the originals and have n...
i feel so angry and i just wanna say i am fed up with all the bullshit and nonsense. i wanna get healthy and then i am out and about. being sick is making me more miserable. and if anyone wanna say stop having a self pity party well don't read it ok??!!!! i was walking and i just felt amgry at being alone and fucking sick all the time. why do the good people gotta suffer? i was walking cussin...
But don't you understand? Passion doesn't always count. My brother was very passionate about everything when I was growing up. We always had to take certain routes in the car. It didn't matter if the routes took us on dirt roads and took us hours longer to reach our destination. He was passionate about lists. He would constantly demand that I give him my f...
I feel like a slave to my own emotions. And every day it's the same; this calm numbness that settles over me during the sunlit hours. I used to say it was "happiness" but I think it's just the neutrality of my spirit. Nobody to bother me, my only company myself, content with the silence, escapism into worlds that are not my own via flashing box and clicking keys, or turning up th...
today i rested and slept alot. i wake up with pain. i feel so sad cuz the pain never stops. i wish someday the migraines stop. i am hoping i can go back to school and get a job. i have no social life and it is hard to go outside. the painkillers do not work. i am seeing my neuro doc for my migraines, palatal myolconus. feelin so tired yet restless i am at times. i pray the pain goes aw...
To all my friends on here, I just want to say Goodbye. I can't do this anymore. I have had enough. I am sat at home as usual on my own. It freezing in my flat cos I can't afford to put the heating on. I have no money so I can't go out. And even if I had money I have no where to go as I don't have any friends. I wouldn't see anyone if it wasn't for Sarah. I sit alone ea...
Twice last night I started making a new journal entry. Twice last night I took actions which, either accidentally or clumsily, sent my words, my emotions, my feelings, into cybernetic non-existence. This it parallels who I am...who I have become. A temporary quantum varience in the space time continuum. A meaningless fluctuation, which will soon enough fade into the random backg...