What is Stuttering
Stuttering (scientifically known as dysphemia) is a speech disorder in which the flow of speech is disrupted by prolongations, repetitions, and blocks of sounds, syllables, words o...
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My name is Mark and i have a very bad stutter which i have had since i was able to talk. It really annoys me and makes me mad that i cant meet new people easily. Im sick and tired of people sniggering at me or just walking away when i try to talk. My only decent friend has moved to America and i really miss having someone to talk to. I dont want to come across as a sad and miserable person, but i cant help it.
I have a pretty rubbish job with low pay. I must have been to over 60 interviews over the past 16 years, with only 1 success. Mainly because i cant even say what i want. Either they lose patience, roll their eyes, smile as if to say "its ok", or just laugh at me. I dont really have an immediate family as they have passed away, apart from my brother who lives in New Zealand with his wife and kids - 10,000 miles away!!! I just feel real lonely these days, no one ever comes round to see me, and i never go out unless its the works xmas party or something, and even then i just sit there and smile pretending im having a blast. Ive tried making new friends but most of them just see me as someone they know rather than a friend to hang out with. im just bored as hell, going to work, coming home, sitting in front of the telly on my own, Sleeping, then going to work, coming home, sitting in front of the telly, sleeping etc etc etc etc etc. Its no good saying just go out there and meet random people, because i have no self confidence, and speaking without stuttering is out of the question. You'll be surprised how many people just walk away or start talking to someone else halfway through me trying to say my name. Anyway its my birthday On Monday the 9th Nov, so ill try and be happy for 24 hours. Probably wont do anything anyway :( ... hope to find someone on here to talk to :) Mark. Posted on 11/08/09, 04:11 pm |
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Hey man,
I know exactly how you feel - I felt the same way for a really long time. After a while though I got sick of letting my stutter own my life - it was something that I can't help and it won't go away. It was so daunting and I spent a lot of nights in tears going out trying to meet people but I kept talking to people and finally found some friends who accepted me. I found it was best to say at the start of the conversation "sorry if my speech is weird - im just nervous and have a stutter" - it made me feel a lot better and less nervous because I didn't feel like I was hiding my stutter. My advice is to go to organized social events - not bars and clubs and stuff but little groups and keep talking to people until you find someone who takes you for who you are. You'll have to wade through a lot of idiots but you'll find it eventually man. 
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