I am so tired physically, emotionally and mentally. I can find not joy, happiness or even sadness. No matter what happens at the moment I have not feeling. Yeah I go thru the motions of what I know I should do but feel nothing. I feel one thing and that is let down by my so called support team. I am lost and dont know what to do I have a new grandchild due within the nex 7 weeks and I dont feel nothing. I am so damn good at hiding my feelings that no one around knows how I am feeling or rather not feeling. I just want to go to
sleep and I dont know. Why am I always the one that has to go help everyone else but when I need the help no one is there. It is so lonely knowing that i cant rely on anyone. I cant put anymore onto my husband who has been looking after me as I have had some kind of flu even after having my flue shot. Even the doctor said didnt you have your flu shot. He is not one you can talk to and he has even told me this. I know I have very broad shoulders but they are full and there is no room left. Normally I would dive into doing some of my craft work but that even seems too hard. Sorry if I seem like I am just dribbling but I am truly lost and dont know what to do.
Posted on 06/27/09, 01:06 am
It sounds to me as if you might be suffering from depression. Maybe this would be a good time to go and see your doctor, and then maybe by the time your grandchild appears, you might be able to be feeling a little better. I hope you can get the help you need. Hugs, Jennie 
