Good Morning.Thank you for taking the time to read my post. First off I would like to share that this is my first time I have ever shared any thoughts in a open manner like this. I really look forward to the experience and thank you all in advance. What brings me here is the fact that I'm currently working on changing my life into a positive rewarding one. Over the last few years I have been on a downward spiral which cause me to hit rock bottom. Most importantly it cause me to not care about myself. Which I knew was wrong however it just was what it was I guess. I got was depressed and created this whole world inside and it was reflecting in everything I was doing. Drinking, spending money, living recklessly,
running from police, fights, you know the normal crazy stuff. There was and still is this one thing that has kept me in check from complete destruction. My kids. I'm a dad of five wonderful kids who's mother lefted and my mom has been helping me care for them. Sadly my Step father is a drunk and me and him don't and can't get along. He is a real ignorant person. Now don't think I'm not greatful for what he has done for them. But you would have to be there to understand. At the same time the mother lefted (we were not together) I was in a happy relationship and thing were going well. But after that all went sour. Having the kids and all the issues that took place cause of the mother put stains on all us and everything feel apart.Its a long story. But my love for them has always giving me
hope. I talk to my kids every night and see them on weekends. I want to change that and I started with changing within. I no longer drink, have been working hard on changing the way I precive the world and myself. I got myself back in
school, I created a life plan, and I have some pretty amazing goals ahead of me.Reason I'm
writing is to learn how to better express myself and let it out into the world. This time next year I will have my kids living with me in a nice house, be back in shape, and doing my thing
Posted on 11/05/09, 12:11 pm
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