Shopping Addiction Support Group

I have a terrible addiction to Makeup. Followed by Coach and shoes. But the makeup is the worst by far. I have sterilite drawer after drawer of the stuff. Around 300 eyecolors alone. My main brands are Bare Escentuals and MAC. I recently filed my taxes and was ashamed to discover that i made $72,000 in 2008 and have nothing but makeup to show for it! My savings is at $0, my checking $40. It's gotten to the point where I don't have money to pay my bills anymore. Buying makeup is far more important to me than paying bills. I have had my cable turned off and be reinstated. The gov't has contacted me about my student loans. And 2 days ago my car was almost repossesed. That was when I hit rock bottom. When the man showed up to tow my car. I called Ford immediatley and begged them to change their minds. My boyfriend gave me the money to make a car payment (afterall I olny have $40), Ford called off the repo, and tow guy left. This was 2 days ago. I realize I need serious help. I have tried to find local groups to help but there are none except for debt. Debt is not my problem though. I have no credit cards or bank loans. I just spend all of my available money on MU instead of bills. I know this problem goes deeper than spending. I grew up with an AA mother so I know all about the reasons and 12 steps. She also was addcited to Valium and would get high and abuse me. My father was also alcoholic but no AA for him. His favorite past time was hitting me and insulting me. So I know why I spend, I just need help in stopping it. I know next time Ford won't give me another chance. I won't have a car. I need HELP! Thank you for listening to my long and pathetic story.
Posted on 02/15/09, 09:02 pm