Sexually Transmitted Diseases - Male Support Group

I am 18 years old and have been in relationships with two men in my life so far. The first relationship I had I noticed my partner had a few small cold sores on his lips...I didn't really think too much of it until I ended up getting a cluster of cold sores on my upper lip a few days later. It didn't go away for a long time...even after a whole tube of Abreva and Carmex ointment.

The second person I had a relationship with previously got cold sores on his lip...his upper lip, shortly after I first kissed him.

I have been to my local health department and planned parenthood about this. They told me all my tests came back negative. The health department said my chance of infection is very very low...but I am suspicious as I gave cold sores to my new partner after the first time I kissed him.

The cold sore on my upper lip has not recurred...but two very small blackish/brown "dots" are there. I get sometimes painful white bumps on the front of my tongue and around/across my tongue quite occasionally now...and I don't know what the hell it is. Is it herpes? Allergies? Another STD? I don't know but it is really annoying for me.

This whole thing leaves me very reluctant to get into another relationship...The last person I talked to, after I told him about the cold sore thing with my last partner, said: "Why would ANYONE want to do ANYTHING with you???!!!! That is GROSS."

So now I am very confused as to what I have...and now I feel like a real piece of crap....Just about every day I live in fear that I will give someone herpes or I will be alone for a long long long time/no one will want to get into a relationship with me. It sounds weird but I get lonely and frightened about the whole situation... =/

Anyone got any suggestions on where I could get tested, directly, for herpes? Or someplace I can go? Any thoughts and replies are welcome. Thank you for reading this.
Posted on 09/19/09, 01:09 pm