What is Sexually Transmitted Diseases - Female
Sexually transmitted diseases (STDs) - also known as sexually transmissible diseases, sexually transmitted infections (STIs) or (infrequently) venereal diseases (VD) - are diseases...
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I just found out Monday, June 29th, that the little pimple on my labia was in fact a genital wart. I have been devastated ever since. I am 36 years old, divorced, mother of two boys, and this was the last thing I needed. I have been in a pretty deep depression ever since I found out. I love sex and I guess this is my punishment for focusing energy there. My doc gave me the cream Aldara (?) and I have been using for the last week. In my haste to get this thing off of me I tried using the Apple Cider Vinegar method I found on a homeopathic website. It burned so bad and I think by me messing around down there so much I spread it and now, aside from being sore, I think there are a couple more little ones.
I just don't know what to do from here. How long will this take to go away. I was smoking and I quit the day after I found out, this has caused me extra stress, so after being cooped up alone all weekend obsessed with googling everything I can about HPV, I bought a pack of smokes this morning. Now, on top of feeling like a disgusting human being for having the warts, I feel like a loser who can't quit smoking. The negative emotions I am feeling are probably feeding the HPV making it worse. I was thinking I got it from this one guy I have been messing with (we had unprotected sex a couple of times) and I told him over the phone about the wart. He was okay, he didn't freak out but we don't have the kind of relationship (we're "friends") that I would expect major emotional support from. After we had unprotected sex in May, I realized I was pregnant, after miscarrying I breathed a sigh of relief and felt that everything would go back to normal. No more unprotected sex, phew! Then a week or so after the miscarriage was all done, I found what looked like a pimple, only it wasn't. I told him I thought I got it from him and he said he hadn't seen anything on his genitals. I haven't talked with him since and after researching I realize I could have had the virus for decades and it didn't become active until my immune system was low enough from the pregnancy. I just don't know where to go from here. I don't know how to stop feeling so disgusting. I don't know how to stop crying. I don't know how to stop thinking about it. I just want to be better, so I can forget. Help. How do I go forward not hating my body. Posted on 07/05/09, 11:07 am |
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Sweetie, I feel for you. The most important thing is - stop hammering yourself so badly. GW are not punishment for your past sexual behaviour. It's just a damn pain but more common than you ever know. My doctor told me if you could see how many people get warts it would amaze you.
You have had a really rough time lately. An unplanned pregnancy is a huge deal to cope with. Quitting smoking is major too - nicotine is about as hard to quit as a hardcore drug. Good on you though - smoking cessation is the best thing you can do to get your immunity back on track. Like you, I got warts after a dip in my immunity. For me it was mono that caused it. Please, trust me, you aren't dirty and this is not your punishment. You most certainly am not a loser. Treat yourself kindly. Do something nice like treat yourself to a lovely warm bath or buy a perfume, get a massage or do something which will make you feel good about your body again. I have been thru the same stuff thinking it must be punishment, I chose a dickhead or two to date, but honey, this isn't the deal. It's just a virus like any other, only it happens to be on your vulva. I hope you have a nice doctor to go to at a clinic and maybe a counselor? You're not alone and believe me, it gets better. I was googling like mad all hours of the day and crying and feeling like a dirty girl. I am now over those feeling since I spoke to a lovely doctor and now I treat myself well and feel in control of this stuff. Hope you feel better by reading this. 
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I found a few pimples down there back in november 08 only to find they wouldn't go away, I tried to pop them and they just bled which inevitably spread the virus...I've had my warts removed probably about 3 times and will probably have a fourth treatment this thursday when I go in for my pap. I've heard positive and negative things. Some people have said if you can build your immune system you won't get them back or may not have to deal with it for years...I take vitamins regularly but they itch when they develope, so not scratching it or touching it without washing your hands....I used aldara for 4 weeks and I don't think it did anything until it burned my skin off, that's the only time the warts went away...they say it helps boost your immune system but for $120 after insurance I can't afford another 4 weeks of that stuff...I did a detox called Back to Health minerals which is supposed to rid all viruses in your body. I have HSV 1 also which this detox is primarily for herpes but they said it would get rid of my hpv also....I'm only about 3 weeks post resolve and they say give it 4 to 6 weeks for your body to calm down...they said I could use the detox as a topically treatment, but I didn't notice that it did anything....So I got some compound W wart removing gel...it says not to use it on your genitals though. you shouldn't use it internally but my warts are mostly around the outside....it burns like crap much like the acid they use when my dr. removes them...I think some of them are actually getting smaller so that's encouraging...there was a short time when I had gotten rid of my warts, but then I didn't treat them for awhile and they came back...but while on the detox it pushes the virus out so naturally they grow....I'm hoping in the next few weeks these will be gone and my immune system will be strong enough to fight them off. I want to have a normal relationship...they say the virus will always be in your system like the cervical cancer strand which I also have, but once the warts are gone it shouldn't really be a problem. I don't know if I believe that or not, although I would like to.....they say it takes about 6 weeks to get rid of warts....thats a long time....but it's been longer than that for me.....just know that you're not the only one who struggles with this.....but I'm taking care of myself and will heal my body...
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You know what, dont feel bad all of us here have something and thats why were here, to talk about and remember things do happen for a reason. Tell me this hasnt changed you completly, maybe for the better...and to even relate with your story, i got the same crap from the guy i was sleeping with....ME:I think i got something...GUY:Well i aint got nothing you didnt get that from me, ill go get tested right now...couple days later....GUY:I got tested and i aint got nothing you must of got it from someone else.....ME:ring, ring, ring, ring...well why aint he picking up.....20 phone calls later, nope no answer. I saw his car few times after that, didnt even want to look to see who was in it, he had a one of a kind car.
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