What is Sexual Abuse
Sexual abuse is a relative cultural term used to describe sexual relations and behavior between two or more parties which are considered criminally and/or morally offensive. Differ...
Join Now
|
Empty and Dead Inside
|
Watch this |
| View More Posts Ignore |
I went to my old house today. Where it all began. I knew I wasn't ready for it, but I needed to help my grandmother and that required going down there. I thought I was going to lose it and go into a full blown panic attack. I couldn't stand being in my old room for more than a few seconds before I had to get the hell away. I feel so empty inside now. Void and dead. I don't know why, and I don't know if it's normal. I feel like I'm mentally millions of miles away...or maybe just years away. Stuck in the past. I can't change it....so why am I stuck in it? I feel like I'm lost within it all. Screaming for help and trying to find a way out. But I'm failing miserably. I'm losing hope. Accepting the fact that I will always be here. Trapped and tangled up in this huge mess. Slipping further and further away from hope and losing sight of everything that matters. Nothing is important anymore...
Posted on 11/08/09, 10:11 pm |
| 1 Reply | Add Your Reply |
| View More Posts Ignore |
Listen to me hun, everything you're going through is completely normal. it is so understandable that you were overwhelmed by what you experienced going back to your old house today. i know i went back to the area it happened and it really messed with me, it took me a while to feel calm again.
i seriously know what it's like to feel so numb, but i absolutely believe it will pass. you survived then and you will, you certainly will, survive now. you are not alone and you are among people who understand what you are going through. i'm so sorry you had to relive the trauma, it always so hard when little or huge things trigger such horrible memories. stay strong friend. send me a message if you need to, we're all here to help each other cope through these difficult times. i would recommend, if you can, to distract yourself as much as you can like read, listen to music, cook, go out for walks, tidy up, whatever it takes to calm down and breathe easier. one day at a time, that's all we can do sometimes and that totally okay. xx 
|
|
|
|
||
| Add Your Reply |
