What is Sexual Abuse
Sexual abuse is a relative cultural term used to describe sexual relations and behavior between two or more parties which are considered criminally and/or morally offensive. Differ...
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I really want to share this, even though it puts me in a bad light. When I was abused as a kid, the worst part was not that it was painful, but that it felt good and all my life I have been ashamed of that.
Fast forward almost 30 years. I am in therapy and I talk about the abuse with friends here on DS. And when I talk about and remember the abuse I sometimes become sexually aroused just remembering it. I hate myself. I never want it to happen but it does. Posted on 11/04/09, 02:11 pm |
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hey zack, their is no reason for u to be ashamed, i get turned on by thr thought of getting beaten. i dont know why but i do. 
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You have nothing to be ashamed of, and it doesn't put you in a bad light. Our bodies are created to feel good when touched certain ways. Your body only does what is normal. I too suffer from the same problem. When I think back to the non-painful moments of my abuse I sometimes become aroused as well.
Its nothing to be ashamed of. I'm here if you ever need to talk.
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I agree there is nothing to be ashamed of, and I also understand why you may feel that way. I am now just beginning to work through my feelings of shame because for me to get turned on I have to think of some pretty horrible things happening to me, and try as hard as I may every time I am with my husband I need to do the same thing just to get it over and done with.
When I finally worked up the courage to tell my therapist I was terrified she would shame me and tell me how awful I was. Instead she sat next to me on the couch wrapped her arms around me and told me I was not the sick, and dirty little girl I thought I was. You are not alone! So try to be compassionate on yourself! Hugs Leanne
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Wow! i used to wonder the same thing! This may be the biggest reason why we place so much guilt on ourselves! no wonder so many SA victims develop bi-polar! thanks for sharing this.
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I know exactly what you're saying. I too remember my sexual abuse feeling good. I was never physically forced, only mentally. And I feel guilty about that and hate myself for not being able to say No.
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i sometimes ask for similar things to be done for that reason. if my boyfriend knew why i asked for certain things, it would make him sick to his stomach.
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Hey, you have nothing to be ashamed of as these people are saying. Though I can definitely relate.
I have a problem where it's not that I associate being abused with being sexually excited... In fact, it really isn't a mental thing - as in, I'm not thinking sexually about being abused and getting aroused by that... Ir's if I talk about it, I get very frightened and ashamed. If I think about it, I can get very frightened and ashamed. At the time, I have no idea what's happeneing physically, but physically, my body is reacting as if it's aroused - I don't like to be graphic, but I later find out. But I don't feel aroused. I feel scared and ashamed. Is this the same thing, or slightly different?
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