Self-Injury Support Group

They are hard to embrace

All the reasons behind the tears down my face

Holding on to such dark memories

On each of the anniversaries.



Times when a whole new percpective was learned

Living on the streets getting burned.

Thrown around like rag doll

Praying each day not to crumble and fall.



Fall off the tight rope that I walk

Gripping with fear eachday and again taught not to talk.

Puting words to the experiences each day

Causing only for everyone dissaray.



Whats hidden down so deep

Is locked away for noone to keep

Except for myself during these trying times

Remembering where not to go again with crimes.



When I have the craving and occasional fiend

I have to remember where it led with greed.

Not caring about anyone or my own life

Reaking havok and bloodgening trife.



Hard lessons had to be learned then

The light was so hard to see in this den.

If the red tears and drugs were not the answer

How do you rid the pain constantly stirred.



Aimlessly wishing for someone to see

How bad I needed a whole family.

So easily willing to be drawn in

In to the life laying only burden.



Burden for my family and own soul to bare

Sometimes looking back with a blank stare

Completely disgusted with that life I led

Now living with the scars from when I bled.



I was so desperate for longing and love

Praying in the only safehaven graveyard to above.

Wishing for friends and family to be

Now that Ive found them I must leave.



Here and now I am so strong and content

Its when I look back on those wasteless years spent.

The pain leading to this pit fall

Is still a skeleton I must withdrawl.



If I continue to lock it down

I fear one day I will completely drown.

Sometimes I think for my own sanity it must stay

Even though it kills me in the still of the night as I lay.



I have come so far because of the love and support that I receive

Why or how could I leave this network conceived?

Not knowing where my future lies

But puting faith in my God because he never denies.



If I can stay strong during this inevitable transition

I think my life will be in a whole new disposition.

Allowing my dreams to be fullfilled.

Something I never could have imagined if I had not willed.



Willed to existence the possibility for success

Stopping the self destruction I obsessed.

I can do this one day at a time

Holding God's hand with a stiff spine!
Posted on 10/28/09, 09:54 pm