Self-Injury Support Group

I know that I have been posting a lot lately and that I have been kind of high maintenince., but i am really struggling right now. I really wanna cut right now. I am not even really sure why but i am having a lot of urges. I think its b/c of my dad and the he treats me. He just take my feeling into consideration. He is just selfish and thinks only of him self and this really bothers me. I just feel like he doesn't love me b/c of a situation that happened last night. Its a long story but basically he is too cheap to go and get gas at the expensive station so if he didn't wake up this early enough this AM to go to the cheap station, I won't be able to go with him to get my mom who is coming home from being in West Virgina for a week. I feel like he knows that I wanna go with him but he is too cheap or too lazy maybe both. I just wish he would take other peoples feelings into consideration sometimes. I mean I miss my mom and I wanna see her too. ANyway I know its stupid and probably makes meo sense but it hurts my feelings. Plus I found out that a classmate of mine from high school died. I thjink she commited suicide. Plus I am still struggling with urges anyway. I had that one out of control "episode"that I wrote about. Ayway i am just struggling and I am at my moms where there are lots of sharp things. I know the simple answer is to leave the house but it doesn't really help. I still have the urges when I come back. I am just not sure. I am sry to bother you all again and this is probably a pointless post. SOrry.
Posted on 07/04/09, 03:07 pm