Self-Injury Support Group

Ok I have been posting on here and getting very little in the way of responses. I know some people have contacted me through chat and that is greta but I still need the support of some replies here. I know you don't always know what to say and thats ok. Just a simple hug or an I',m with you or a hang in there or a simple I care would be great. I am sorry for being needy. If I am being too needy just tell me and i will stop.
Ok Now to the reason for this post. I cut last night, but it just wasn't just any cxutting episode. No, this one was different. I just couldn't seem to stop. I kept cutting and cutting and cutting. Finally I stopped myself byu going to the store where I was going to be some groceries, buit i was so tempted to by something to slef harm with. The stuff I have isn't that sharp anymore. I didn't buy anything, but I did go home and cut some more. This was the worst"episode(for the lack of a better term) in a long time and I am scared. I am scared that the self harm is goiojg to get out of control again. Just like it was two and a half months ago when i wound up in the hospital b/c of it. Well that and other reasons. Anyway i don't want it to get that out of control again. i stopped for two months and now I am sucked back into the trap and caught up in the cycle and idk how to gfet out of it. I mean i need to slam an the brakes NOW or it will get out of control and I will go to the hospital b/c of where i live, but that another story. I guess what I asking is how to break the cycle? How to I stop myself from cutting tonight? How do I stop it from getting so out of control? If I don't stop it there will be consequences I don't wanna deal with. Anyway, any input, advice, comments, support ANYTHING is welcome. i really need help here guys. Thanks.
Posted on 07/02/09, 03:07 pm