Self-Injury Support Group

I si from the time I was 13 till I was almost 20 then I stpoed for over 11 years I am almost 31 now and I started back about 6 months ago i don't think you ever lose the erge to all the way So I have been realy battleing this week I have si 4 times in the past 4 days so when it first started back about 6 months ago I just thout it was a siingle slip up but then it happened 3-4 times after that over the past 6 months so I desides about a month ago I needed to get help my apontment is on Friday and I have had so much axziety over this appontment that I have now sliped 4 times in 4 days so with out help I realy don't know if there is ever a end to it and after 11 years of not si I feel that you never compleatly lose the erge to si. But as time Gose by I will get Easyer it did for me I went from the time my oldest dauter 7 was born till 6 months ago and don't realy remember taking about it at all but be careful it will slip up on you again when you are least exspecting it. Hope this wii help.

I think it's a lot like any other habit...if you go back to it, you will find yourself using it instead of the new coping mechanisms you've found.

Old habits die hard sometimes.

Thanks that makes alot of scence I just got to make this psy apontment on Friday and stop trying to convince myself to cancel it because I can't go back to where I was 11 years ago I have too much to lose and I have already felt I was losing them all my two girls my husband and my bestfriend who have boath been right by my side all along but are realy getting scared now. Thanks

it wil always with u it sort of becomes an extra organ i think hah
but if ya just get a hobby maybe that could help like taking tennis lessons or boxing to let out ur frustration
like im a very happy person on the outside but inside is just a black hole but i put on a good front of my friends an all

Thank you for your replies. I was not in a good place this morning. In my head I went through all of my urges....to binge on food, to binge on alcohol, to binge on drugs and of course to cut. I am in therapy and at a critical stage in that therapy. I see my CPN tomorrow and I hope to put the final pieces in the jigsaw for him. I really want to do this and I know I can because I want more from life than I have at the moment.

I did get lost in my eating disorder this morning and I did self harm but a friend called to let me know of her problems and so I went to help her out. Little did she know that allowing me to help her has helped me.

The urges of someone who self harms can easily be compared to that of an alcoholic. Explain things that way and people may begin to understand that it is not so easy to stop these things.

I am dealing with the urges to drink, self harm and those that engulf me in my eating disorder. I can deal with these urges more and more but on days like today they do get a bit much. So I really do appreciate the help from all of you today.