What is Secondary Infertility
"Secondary infertility" is difficulty conceiving after already having conceived and carried a normal pregnancy. Apart from various medical conditions (e.g. hormonal), this may come...
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After our last visit with the doctor, we did some heavy soul searching and fighting and talking and finally came to about the same conclusion. My husband is (and I say this in a totally loving way) an incredibly geeky engineer and he made up a graph of all our options and the probabilities of them succeeding over the course of two years. IIt was a little depressing. You hear 35% success with each cycle of IVF but don't realize it means after 3 cycles you still only have a 65% chance of success after 3 cycles. Since then, I've actually been thinking of letting go of IVF as an option and trying to restore my faith in God and his plan.
Just when I thought I had myself okay with it, he got more test results back that were horrible. He's very variable which makes us not good candidates for IUI or even trying naturally. So I started to question my decision all over again. I think I was okay with it when I thought we had a chance at something else but faced with not much chance at all, suddenly I'm unsure again. I keep thinking if I knew for sure IVF would work, it would be a no-brainer. I imagine the same is true for a lot of us. But the not knowing and indecision is killing me. I want so badly to put my faith in God's plan but I just keep thinking "What if his plan doesn't include what I want so desperately?" Posted on 10/28/09, 10:10 am |
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I am in the same boat as you this is the reason I cried for two weeks straight. But if we truly give it to GOD then we can't look at statisics or probability we have go with "his will." Yep we may have to do ivf 2,3, or 4 times or we may be blessed to conceive naturally. I am considering doing ivf soon but mentally I must be prepared if his answer is "not now" and that is the "hardest part." In my mind I can feel I will carry another baby born from my womb. I already have a name picked out and have it on my vision board. Do I know when and how GOD is going to do it?... no way. But, that is where my faith is kicked it up a notch. If I pray I can't put GOD in a box of numbers and hope for the best. I have prayed for my baby and I am just going to walk in faith even though my earthly circumstances look dim God does have a plan. As I reflect back over my life and he has always found a way of giving me what my heart has desired and more. 
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