Schizophrenia Support Group

Ok first of all I want to say I do not have schizophrenia,I am here to support.Secondly I do get psychosis,diognosed with psychotic depression and recurrent depression which often slides into Bipolar Disorder.Then I deal with insomnia and sometimes panic attacks.During the panic attacks and depression I often get psychosis,usally hearing voices.Every now and then I fully hallucinate,people will vanish,colours go strange,things distort.I work in a retail store and when I get real stressed out I panic and then things turn to shit.My boss knows about my dpression but not about anything else,the problem is that she is very strict and isn't very caring or sympathetic.When I have a panic attack and go into full psychosis I don't know what to do.I can't run and hide away as I am head of the department! I just have to tell myself it isn't real.Sometimes I look like I'm drunk and my balance goes on me and I end up walking side ways...I can't tell anyone there.One time I heard sheep through the radio and told the staff,they thought I was crazy.I normally know it isn't real,Iv'e had a few times though where Iv'e been so out of reality Iv'e believed in it and thought there was another world I could see into.What should I do? Please help!
Posted on 10/28/09, 05:10 am