Schizophrenia Support Group

I really do at least on half of the time. I abandoned our kids twice, missed out on raising them and being with their dad, never been able to work more than part time, never could apply myself at school, and I can't seem to be a part of the regular world at all. Been resigned lately. Fighting it doesn't seem to work. Living with it is easier said than done, but thank goodness I'm not angry today. It is taking my life away though or may be I should say giving me the life it wants to give me. It's raining hard today. The water spirit is comforting me. I know we are loved and important, just today.

Thanks for your comments. I don't feel so alone.

hey hidi
im tammy n yes i know exactly how u feel ive lost my husband my job n my kids, my mom my sister my father,just think i am a screw up, they dont even believe in the disease aint that a kick in the ass not only that i live in philadelphia n in this big city with more that a million people there are only two crc (crisis response center) in this city. to make things even better the sergual gave me diabetes which has effected my kidneys so they are changing my meds, im down im up. n oh friends yea right friends around when u dont friggin need them so i have none or no one to talk to people dont understand how this disease takes your life i feel as tho i am dead n just walking the earth in limbo just wanted u to know i know what ur going through hit he up anytime
tam

hi Tammy, thanks for your comments. Wow, I really feel for you. My family doesn't believe in the disease either until recently when it hit home with my Nephew. He is out of school today because he is hearing voices. My sister seems to think that it's a spiritual/religious thing. But, she is willing to try anti-psychotics which really surprised me. Now maybe they know how hard it has been for me.

Yes there are several of us who feel like that. I was fortunate(maybe unfortunate) that before my shcizo developed, I got married, had two daughters and bought a nice home with a good business. I have lost my business, been close to loosing my home. I am unable to take care of my kids because of severe hallucinations. And I feel like my marriage has been falling apart. We aren't close like we used to be. My wife doens't understand what I'm going through and in my opinion doens't want any more to do with it. So I think within a year I will have lost my business(already), lost my house, and my family. It hurts so bad. How could this happen to us. What did we do to deserve so much pain? I just don't get it. They say God's favorite ones have it hard so we must be at the top of his list. All this has driven me to really really contemplate suicide. I hope that you haven't got to that point. But I know how hard it can be. The bad news just to be honest is that I have been on over 15 different meds and nothing has come close to helping me. A lot of them made me worse and had terrible side effects. I think I am stuck like this for the rest of my life which is why I want so badly to end it early. I have nothing but the warmest wishes for you.

I hope this gives you some hope. I have been schizo-affective now for over 10 years, but i manage to have a job, a house, and child and now I am newly engaged. There have been low-points in my life, but now things are looking up and I hope eventually for you they do too.
Life goes on long after the thrill of living is gone.

Shanda

I am happy for you. Why can't I get to that point? What's wrong with me? My anti-d's are not working. Can't wait till I see my pdoc again in two weeks.