What is Schizophrenia
Schizophrenia is a psychiatric diagnosis that describes a mental disorder characterized by impairments in the perception or expression of reality and by significant social or occup...
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Schizophrenia: A Trip to the Light Fantastic
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Schizophrenia. At first the misconception goes to a man in a padded room, completely unable to think or care for himself. Misconceptions of schizophrenia just being "apeshit crazy" have misconstrued the masses into naturally exiling those who have it socially and emotionally. These people have their definition seriously wrong. Schizophrenia isn't just about "Positive" and "Negative" symptoms, it's about a new way of life for those whom it affects.
Schizophrenia is more like a constant dance of ones subconscious and conscious. It is a graceful battle of power between which one rules the moment, dreams or reality. At times, they mix together into chaos or harmony, something horrible or beautiful for the moment. At times, when the dreams are leading the dance, they can be nightmares. These are times when there are threatening, evil or deadly visions or ideas are in control. On the other end of the spectrum, there are kind dreams. There are kindred voices and scenes, dancing colors, or an orchestra of the stars in the night sky. There are the smells of a beach in a closed room. A fresh apple pie just being brought out. A kind hand on ones shoulder, pushing one to move on. These are the precious times. If schizophrenia just had these good times without the bad, it would be delightful. Yet, nightmares cause the coming of medication, when the nightmares lead the dance. Luckily, on medications, the dance soothes, and the realm of reality leads. Yet at times, on medication, the kindred dreams at times step up, fusing with reality in the slightest way. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I write this because I am annoyed of misconceptions of schizophrenia, and well, as my nonsensical logic leads, I've been thinking about odd things at times. On my medications I still have sometimes where dreams fuse with reality. My dreams feel more real, I can smell and feel everything that happens, and at times, my reality will have misplaced colors, visions, smells, or gentle warmth inspired only by the realm of dreams. Right now I'm comfortable on my medication, and wouldn't have it any other way. I love the good times of schizophrenia, and am happy that the bad times have been ushered out by medication. So, that's all I can think of right now. Yup, my little rant session. Comment please! :D Posted on 10/19/09, 03:10 pm |
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If this is what schizophrenia is than I have been wrongly diagnosed with Bipolar way back in 1991. I have struggled my whole life. My major complaint has always been that I can't get out of my dream world. Later it has been switched to possible borderline personality! How can a loner be borderline? No one thinks I'm borderline. Do you have to have a flat affect to be schizophrenic? I am a passionate person but I'm not able to be all here ever, and I am quite psychotic a lot, either enjoying the hell out of it or in hell just like you described. I'm med free. I think I have a mild case but it's debilitating and disabling. I would never give up the good 'people' I've met in the good dreams so I'm glad to hear that you are being helped to have the positive 
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Wow. Well according to your rant I'm rant and I've been schizophrenic for a long time. Only recently has it basically destroyed my life though.
You are an amazing writer by the way.
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I can tell I'm not in this world and I better be paying attention. I do make misinterpretations. But in schizophrenia the person is not supposed to know when they are in the other world? The thing that has always confused me is that I believe in my other world, and I don't ever come totally back to this one. I'm sure the other world is real and here for me. I totally know how to pursue it and live in it, but I keep giving that up. I have kids older than you and I might be a Grandma soon. They keep me trying to be here but I am a fake, a good one, but a fake just the same. I'm not really present. I may have to fake it my whole life, but what I do and how I act is the most important. It can give me joy even but then I must retreat for days. My kids could get sick. I want to keep trudging to show it can be done. Easier said than done. We live miles apart so I haven't been caught. They don't understand why I'm disabled. I abandoned them and was a drunk for a long time too. You kids being so young and learning about yourselves really inspire. Keep trudging. We all need each other.
And Minttie you are a GREAT writer.
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Thanks for the replies guys! Lorna, nope just because someone's schizophrenic doesn't mean they need to be all flat and monotone-y. Sometimes the person may be like that, sometimes not, or sometimes, just sometimes. Maybe you have some schizoaffective action goin on for you! Cuz you remind me of me, lol.
The thing about fake worlds, I suppose, is when we've been subjected to them it makes one wonder about what is truly going about around them, if they are real, if whats around them is real, or if any of it truly matters. That's one of the worst parts of it for me, just not feeling real. Sedona, I know how you feel. And thanks for the compliment. I was experiencing symptoms for a loong time before it got worse and it destroyed me, but I'm feeling a little better now. Thanks guys! :D
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Thanks. I have a real hard time and that is the truth. I have finally got on disability 3 years ago. I'm not sure at all what is true for me or what really matters and it totally interferes with functioning in society. And then I get so I don't care about that. Anyway you are most helpful.
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I'm very glad to hear you are doing better.
I showed this to my best friend and she agreed that it is well written and that it describes me "to a 'T'" would you mind if I printed this off as a way to help me describe my problems to my psychiatrist? (who by the way is an asshole and judgmental, making me think I have no right to be in his office) I would obviously give you the credit of writing it.
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I have a confession to make. I copied the letter and put it in my files. I said it was by you of course and I would if I ever shared it if you wanted that. But I should ask too. I'm having a great time by the way. Euphoric and loving every minute. I'm just walking around all day seeing through as many eyes as are in the sky at night. Truly a blessing and a gift, enjoying the long nights even, where dreams and the invisible are more easily read.
I don't read often but I opened this book this morning given to me back in 1992 called Women Who Run with the Wolves. A family member gave it to me cause nobody ever thought it was bad to be afflicted in my family. I am truly blessed. It's great reading for me. About time I opened it! I'm just on the 5th page of the Introductory. I may not get through it but I'm going to try. Good luck Sedona and Peace be with you.
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Thanks for actually using my writing guys! I'm surprised you actually find it useful, I thought I was just ranting xD. I'm just sick of all the lame-o definitions of schizophrenia out there..And good luck with your book Lorna! :D
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Thanks. lol
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