Schizophrenia Support Group

I would tell the doctor. But I am fat and overweight because of the meds that I take. Hubby doesn't see it he blames me not exercising or doing enough around the house as the reason why I am fat. As far as men and mental illness are concerned he's a saner so he's pretty much clueless. I know being fat is not something you want to accept that will happen to you but let me ask you this: What do you care about more your weight or your sanity? If I had the same question to answer it would have to be sanity hands down.

Hope you get to feeling better soon.

Princess

Thanks for the reply Princess. But if I had to pick, I'd pick that I care more about my weight, cuz the two are linked. If I got fat because of the meds I'd go crazy anyway. They're already making me start to get anorexic thoughts to not gain weight. My boyfriends a saner too and he says that he doesn't care about my weight, but my ideal self is someone skinnier than me.

I would tell the doc, but I know what you mean about them increasing the meds. I'm part of the fat and stupid club,lol! Do your hallucinations scare you? If not, try telling yourself, "This is not real, I am ok". I do this and it seems to work unless the thoughts are too intrusive. I just pray and hope for the best for you. hope I have helped.

Hi, Well guess what. My new therapist in my new town thinks I am schizophrenic. So I wasn't off the mark. No wonder bipolar medication never worked. I have had terrible side effects from anti psychotics and I will never try them again. But I have a lot to live for, 3 kids and all. So I'm having a hard time giving anyone advise. My life is extremely hard. I've either got my dreamworld down to a science and am living in euphoria or depressed because I'm trying to be in reality and failing. My moods don't control my psychosis, my psychosis controls my moods! I'm so out of touch that I thought I was manic or depressed. I'm just plain delusional! But I'm in control of the bad messages and if I get them I take the person to court. I have a lot of friends in my world and they stick up for me. I've learned to tell my dreamworld from this world by trial and error. But I have spent a lot of time there. I know how to pretend to be here and listen when someone is talking to at least the ques to keep it straight. I can't be around people too much, or TV, or noise because I take it inside and my mind gets real noisy like a rockis party. I have to go in there and yell and get the attention of everyone and calm them down. I do that by meditating on peace for all of us and they like that. But I've noticed that I hear TV violence, drama, and not real helpful things. I recognise it and turn it off. I never watch TV. Science fiction books and I do rent movies. Also I've noticed that junk food feeds the psychosis, not getting proper sleep, and I'm clean and sober. But sometimes I just have to take a xanax and go to sleep. Anyway you wrote that beautiful description of being schizophrenic that made me think perhaps it is all worth it. Hang in there. Do tell your doctor. Perhaps there is something else you can take. And in the meanwhile I am here, new to this new diagnoses. In total fear and angst a lot. But I'm 51 years old. I've exhibited symptoms of something since I was 7. And I'll tell you what the journey has been real long but it's been well worth it.

Hi!

Although I understand your thoughts 100%, I think it is best you tell your doctor. This will help you in the long run. I know how you feel because I've thought my meds and food were slowly poisoning me- not to be fat and stupid, but to make me go crazy, lose myself as I slowly drowned. For a while, I didn't talk about it; I just waited to drown. I talked to my doc and though I still have this feeling sometimes, I tell myself that nobody can hurt me with my friends and family behind me! The doc was very understanding, and she told me to not bottle things up, otherwise I really WOULD go crazy!! Now, I can eat pizza tonight and no have to switch plates with my friends! ha ha!
This is not the answer! Tell your doc how you are feeling and make SURE they listen to you! If you're worried about losing your creativity, try writing down all the things you are worried about. Pugt yourself in the doc's shores and MAKE them understand how frightening this is for you. Tell yourself that YOU are in control! If you need advice, you can talk to me, but in the mean time focus on doing positive things and being around people who make you happy.
As for the lose of your inner voice- I too have gone through this and am still going through it. The only solution I can find is to suround yourself with friends you know love you. Soon, you won't feel as empty. You'll get through this, honey. I promise!

Remember! I'm just a click away! (Boy, that was cheesy. But you know what I mean!)

Good luck! :)