What is Rocky-Mountain-Spotted-Fever
Rocky Mountain spotted fever is the most severe and most frequently reported rickettsial illness in the United States, and has been diagnosed throughout the Americas. Some synonyms...
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Monday November 23, 2009
Painful Stories
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i know i should tell. I know i need detox and rehab. but i'm so scared. it's so much easier to stick with the way things are. but that's life, yeah? i know i should get help ASAP. I'm scared of being even more of a screw up to my parents. I'm scared of detoxing. I'm scared of who I'll meet doing rehab. it makes me want more ativan. how fucked up is that? thinking about...
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this evening I got a call from my therapist- the sheriffs department contacted him. they finally got around to the paper work for my case. all the stuff with my dad. it was first reported, really reported like, a month ago. and they talked to my mom first, then my therapist who told me (he had to ask me for permission to talk to them). i just sent my parents an e-mailing telling them how it wasn&...1 Recommendation
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Why is it when ever one injury acts up, they all act up? My right wrist hurts a lot so my left wrist, my right knee, my back and my head all hurt. Not cool. Also, my grandfather and his wife are here. I'm not sure how I feel about that. Plus it's forcing me to socialize with my parents waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay more. Cause if I want to interact with Zaida (yiddish for grandfather) and Cathy then...1 Recommendation
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I am grieving for the parents I never had and will never have. It's been so hard watching my brother have the parents I want (the same two people) and not getting the same love and affection myself. They've been good parents, good children, good spouses, good siblings. Slowly, slowly, slowly, I'm learning to let go, to stop expecting them to be sensitive to my needs. To stop...1 Recommendation
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I hate myself so much right now. And I feel that by hating myself I'm letting people down. Which just makes me hate myself more.1 Recommendation1 Comment
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my body is just in constant pain these days. my knees are acting up from going up and down stairs so much, my feet hurt from all the walking, i get headaches almost everyday, my hip hurts for god knows what reason, throat hurts when it starts getting close to time for my next dose from the damn inhalers... I just hurt all the time.1 Recommendation
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I am so fucking depressed it's rediculous. break is almost over and I am so not ready for school. I have 8 essays that i still have to write that i haven't done this past week.two of which are over due. maybe i should just drop out now and save everyone the hassle of flunking me out. i've been cutting. a lot. I just want to go away somewhere and leave all this bad stuff behind. i want...1 Recommendation
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Cut my sheets and dye them red
Blood pouring out
Of my head
As I watch the drops seep in
I wonder how long till it all sinks in
I’m dead, I’m dying inside
I’m pale, I’m crying inside
How long till they notice that I’m gone?
I could have turned in to a swan
Instead like weights they drag me deep
I’m such a mess, a coma is my only sleep
Scars itch, I can’t control
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It's like I turned around, opened my eyes only to see everything I had built up crumbling. People are being mean, people are judgemental, people are dissapearing- rapidly fading from my life. Spending four days with my parents was long enough for another mind-fuck. I don't know what I'm doing. I thought I had something studier then this house of cards tumbling down around me.
If all yo...1 Recommendation -
I'm feeling fat ugly and worthless. Since my life went to hell I've gained over 80 pounds. I think I eat to much. I need to just stop eating. My leg still hurts. Summer session of school has gotten fucked up. I want to do an RVT program but don't want to live with my parents. I also don't want to live with my aunt and uncle. All the RVT programs I've found come after an AA in ...1 Recommendation
