Rape Support Group

I wish i did not need to say goodbye to all of you. I feel so much support from this group and I am lucky to have met you.

This afternoon it came to my attention that a group member has broken our walls of trust. Someone who i saw as a close friend on here was not who I thought he was. I started talking to this friend a few months ago on a pretty much daily basis. He told me that I was the only person who knew about his abuse. I felt close to him so I shared things that I have never even put into words before. I shared what was on my heart, and what scared me the most. He seemed to understand me and want to support me. I wouldn't have know anything different if it weren't for the naked photo he posted in his picture section. I was badly triggered by our ongoing conversations so badly that it almost pushed me into a spiral of self injury. I see myself as a horrible person and continually put other people's needs in front of my own. I even see my attacker as a better person than me. And the this afternoon I discover that my clost friend was using our conversations as smutt to please himself with. I feel betrayed and violated. I know that there are many very nice and supportive people on this site, but I don't know if I could ever trust like that again.

Please be careful when sharing things privately online. You never know who or what is really on the other side of the screen.
Posted on 11/06/09, 08:11 pm