Rape Support Group

If you have a strong relationship with your partner then you should most definitely tells him. Right now you are afraid and alone and your fear is closing you off. These fears are hurting you and ripping holes into you and the wounds will fester and get worse.

I recently forced myself to open up and talk to my partner. We have been together 5 years but I never talked in detail about my past just that I was abused and life was bad. But the past started haunting my dreams and I was remembering things I hadn't thought about in years and questioning things I wasnt mature enough to question.

I let my fears get to me so badly. I stopped wanting a sexual relationship with my partner. I began avoiding touches. I couldn't sleep. I cried all the time. I tried to help myself but I couldn't. One day it finally got so bad that I wouldn't allow my partner to touch me and even didn't want my four year old daughter to touch me. I was just crying but didn't want to talk.

Finally I wrote a letter trying to explain. He came home to find me sobbing all over the notebook. I opened up and I have felt a million times better since that day. I let the fear paralyze me and stop me from connecting to the two most important people in my life. The very same people I need most in my corner while I'm fighting my demons. Don't let the same happen to you. Talk to your partner and figure out how you feel.

Are you sure you were raped or are you afraid because you were drugged? Could someone have slipped something into your drink at the bar before you left? If your boyfriends friends are this shady he needs to know who he has been keeping company with.

Tell your boyfriend or have him read your post. It is obvious that his friend drugged you and he drugged you for a purpose -sexual assault- otherwise why bother. It happened to me and I too doubted because whatever happened while you were drugged does not exist for you because there is no memory. Exactly the same thing 2nd glass of wine and then it was the next morning and it felt different. You can read my experience at www.surviverape.blogspot.com if you like.
Remember that you are the victim in this!

That's a horrible thing to have happen to you. For me, not knowing is worse than having bad memories.

It would prob. be a good idea to see a doctor. I don't know what he gave you but traces of some drugs can stay in your system for a long time.

Hopefully you were not assaulted.

You'll have to be strong and even be ready for it if your mind starts to piece together what happened and it's bad.

I've heard of cases where people were drugged and later start to remember bits and pieces of what happened.