Prescription Drug Abuse Support Group

I started non-compliance when I was 13, I hated the way being on medication made me feel, and I hated taking them because they reminded me of the time I had spent in the hospital. Also, kids are really cruel to the outcast with "problems."

Over-use started with not wanting to loose another job because I was so tired from the drugs, it is a good question.

Thanks for reminding me I didn't wake up one day and decide "today I'll become addicted to drugs." I started taking too much providgil, I don't have narcolepsy, it was prescribed to counter-act side effects. In the beginning, I just wanted to stay awake and work and not be fired.

My addiction started 5 years ago when I developed blood clots throughout my body. They discovered I had a blood disorder and I almost didn't make it. I have been struggling with depression and anxiety a few years before theclots and that just put me over the edge. I have 2 sons and I was constantly afraid I was going to die. In the hospital I was on morphine and percocet. I loved it from the start. It made me happy and I felt like I was "super mom". I could do it all! Or so I thought. I was prescribed percocet for the clots for a few more months until the doctor stopped everything since the pain was gone. I immediately went through withdrawal and didn't know what was wrong with me! A friend of mine told me that I could buy them off the street and introduced me to some "people". I started taking 5 percs at a time then 10 to 20 a day to try to get high. It just wasnt cutting it. Then I got introduced to Oxycontin. I fell in love. I was taking that every day when I could afford it. $30 a pill was killing me. I lost my apartment and almost lost my babies. I finally came clean to everyone in my family and got help. They already knew, but I was finally admitting it. I did awful things to get my pills that kill me just to think of. I stole from my family and friends. I cant believe I did that now.

I am on Suboxone now. Have been on it for 3 years. I know that is a long time to most of you but it works for me. I dont know if I ever will get completely clean but the Suboxone makes my life a hell of a lot better. I feel normal again. I know it is just a crutch, but for me it is a life saver. If i was not on Suboxone I would be back to pills. I will never get better. So, if this is what I have to do, then I will do it.

Amy, mine is the same as yours. I had a car accident a couple of years ago and I have been on pain meds ever since. I do need then at times, but I continuing seeing the dr. cause I want them and need them for different reasons. I am allowed 4 lortab 7.5 per day. I always take more than that and then I have to really skimp to make it to the next prescription. I am able to ween myself down to one/day or 1/2 per day when I start running out, but I hate it! And the monster in me is screaming for more. Even before that, if the opportunity to take them ever arose, I would, but never had the opportunity to have them prescribed to me on a regular basis - what a curse. I have stolen them from my mom, my husband to get me by until my next prescription. I really don't know how else to get them and I don't want to know. I was off of them for a couple of weeks cause I ran completely out. It happened to be during the time that I found out about my husband' affair but I was taking an antidepressant and atavan to sleep so if there was withdrawls it was all mixed in with the grief of the affair. I couldn't wait till my next appointment to get another refill. I really want and need to stop, but I don't know if I have the will power to do it on my own. I smoke cigs and it's the same kind of thing and especially since finding out about my H affair, it's all just worse ya know. Anyway, TMI I know. If your doc cut you off, how to you get your meds.