Friday December 6, 2013
nothing seems important anymore.
i want to make joshua proud, but i dont have the strength to get up anymore.
ive lost 15 pounds already, and its still dropping rapidly. thats an extra 6 pounds i lost prior to being pregnant.
food is disgusting to me, i cant force myself to eat more than a granola bar.
my hands wont stop shaking, i cant stand without being dizzy.
it feels like im slowly dying ins...
AdvertisementIt's been a year and a half of heartbreak and pain on a regular basis and I'm spent. We saved up for so long to get the vasectomy reversal (thank you hubby's ex-wife for that one) and when we learned that it was successful, I was so filled with hope.
And now I wonder if I'm just ungrateful for the blessings that I have.
I had waited for my husband for so long. I thought he would never show ...
Yesterday we received a phone call from our dear friends who have been trying to conceive for over a year now. They called to let us know that they had a miscarriage on Friday, and that they were due exactly a week before us. My heart aches for them and I am at a loss. They were planning on telling everyone on Saturday. Not only am I so incredibly sad for them, I feel so guilty and scared. S...So much for wondering which kind of IUI we should do. Guess I shouldn't have spent so much energy agonizing over it. In the course of one afternoon...looks like neither is an option.
My husband's truck has been making a weird noise for about a month. He's been researching and trying to figure out what it could be. He does all of his own maintenance, repairs, upgrades, etc. He has sunk so much mon...
So Tuesday, August 27th was supposed to be my due date. In my head, I know that it is pretty unlikely that it would have been Todd's actual BIRTH day, but in my heart, I feel like he should be here with me, right now, on this day. It was supposed to be the day I'd bring my baby home, to be able to hold him in my arms and see his cute dimple. To share little statistics about my l...
I feel so frustrated this evening, everything was going soo well and I guess id allowed myself to get excited....first mistake!! No joy allowed for us infertiles! Smething has to knock me down again!
Well yesterdays blood and scan seemed to go ok 6 good size follicles and a cluster of smaller ones, not as good as I first thought but certainly nothing to worry about! Talk of triggering either satu...
So i THOUGHT i hit the board pregnancy after loss/infertility and so i started a topic not thinking to much about it just typing away and put my info down about me and whats been going on. Well so i hit "add topic" and then i look at the top of the page it freaking said Trying to Concive page!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG i wrote on there right away and told the ladies i was sorry and i reported myse...