Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) Support Group

I thought of the same thing. I live in a major metropolitan area with MILLIONS of people, seriously, how can there not be an in-person group, right???

You know, I think this would be a large undertaking. I am struggling with something that has me alone in my room using my best skills in a controlled environment where I do get amazing support from people (hello - you!) :) and I could never imagine pulling off something in-person.

Pray on it? I have been doing that nonstop. ;)

Ya know...I was just thinking about doing that...praying on it.

I am new to the Spiritual side of me...and actually we talked about the steps one should undertake before making a big decision...we talked about this at Church a few weeks ago.

I have these steps on my Fridge.

I will pray about it...

It is a big undertaking and a big responsibility that I don't know if I can hold down if I am having a bad spell.

I get a certain feeling inside... I've checked it for years for accuracy.

When I feel a sense of peace, like a warm, shining that fills me up, I know I am headed in the right direction.

When I feel ill and just this... black, sinking sensation, I know I am heading for MAJOR trouble.

What I do is feel around inside, if it's mostly light, but there seems to be a "dark" or "cloudy" spot, then I ask questions, think of things, contemplate options and changes and gauge how those sensations change with each thought.

I suppose it is like playing "hot or cold." You know... warmer, warmer, oh! getting cold... warmer, warmer, hot, burning up! ;) When I *do* listen, I'm good to go. The problem is when I move to the "logic" side of things... like, I had the CREEPS about my work at the place where I was discriminated against from the start. I just rationalized it all away... what a different life if I had made a different choice, eh?

When I do listen, it's like God brings me one good thing after another. One time I just got this so fine tuned that, every game I sat down to play, I won. (My family plays LOTS of games when we get together.) I won 6 concert ticket packages, videos, tshirts, can't remember what all else from this one local station until they changed the rules that a person can only win once a month. I was on such a roll, I had won twice in a day. I dunno, everything worked.

I screw up when I rationalize and get distracted. I just need to remember to rationalize when I am working on a project but use my "emotional senses"(??) to choose the project and gauge its progress. ;)