What is Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
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I have been in 2 major car accidents one when I was 3 and again when I was 5. My mom was the driver both times. I suffered from multiple concusions and broken bones. I was diagnosed with PTSD. I apparently wouldn't get back in a vehicle with my mom. Till this day I can not remember almost anything before 6 or 7 grade. When I was in 10 grade my boyfriend raped me in September. I was to scared to do anything about it. He continued to stalk me for many years later (including rape multiple times) I became pregnant my senior year with his child and he beat me until I lost it in Febuary. I was very suicidal and asked a friend of mine to take me to a hospital. A few years a go I moved away to go to college and went on an externship. On this around September I found myself telling people that my family was killed in a car wreck. This was not true. I did not realize it until it already began. I then continued with the lie. I can not figure out why. I was eventually caught and moved back home. Last year the same exboyfriend broke into my apartment multiple times. I was to scared to go to the cops or tell my family. My friends knew and helped me alot. This year I found my self making up lies again. This time I said I was going to die of cancer in 3 months. Again this was around the same time of year. I also didnt realize I said it until it was said. I continued with the lie. I was caught. I hurt alot of people more than I can explain. I have lost the trust of everyone. I owned up to it and am in the process of telling everyone the truth and appologising. Even tho I do not think it is enough, but it is all I can do. I have hit rock bottom and need help.
Posted on 10/31/09, 02:10 am |
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hi there...i think you have a lot going on, and it's not really related to your ptsd from the car crashes. you lived such an awful life at home, around such a poor excuse for a man, it's no wonder mentally you created your parent's death, it's the ultimate freedom.
the cancer...umm...i don't know. that's seriously bad mojo, man! screaming out in pain, screaming for help, loneliness, depression... this stuff makes a good person do strange, harmful things. it's good you're coming clean, though. good luck! 
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Okay, now, I'm no doctor...so I can't think of any single condition this may be linked to, other then Pathological Liar.
i have to agree with voodooguru though, your home life sucked..and your so-called "boyfriend"...yeah, not cool. I can see this as 2 things. 1. Pathological Liar(as mentioned above, I'm sure there another name for it...but I don't remember what it's called) 2. Detachment. I wouldn't doubt that you feel unsafe around your family, or the location in which you live, given that your ex has broken in and threatened you countless times. I also, wouldn't doubt, that your lie about your parents dying in a car crash ACTUALLY has some "logical" sense to you, due to the fact that if your mother was driving, then there's a very good chance that it COULD happen. You probably originally may have said it as a joke. The cancer thing, you said that you were very suicidal once...have you ever wished a life claiming illness upon yourself?? If so, that's pretty much would that could be. A desire to be dead...without actually "killing" yourself. Trust me...I know all about that. On both accounts...minus the evil boyfriend. But the desire to constantly want to die and the belief that, my parents could die in a car accident. Especially with the way they both drive now. As long as I can remember(even up to this very day), I've always imagined that my family was brutally murdered by the very beings that held me captive and tortured me in various ways. It's the same scenarios...and it's been the same ever since I was about 11yrs old. ***Note: My parents are both well(mostly) and alive...and, pretty much the only thing that tortures me is my very mind.
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larooni,
First, I am so sorry about your experiences; which I admit that I had to skim through as I am feeling a bit sensitive today. Second, I think that it is not uncommon in the process of examining violations that we, our selves, have experienced; to invariably also acknolwdge our own violations. So, my answer is that the process of "healing" from traumas--when those traumas include intentional violations by others, involves a sort've motion that is similar to an audit; and reconciliation should naturally include our own offenses and violations as well. In my faith, the process of reconciliation (confessions) frequently compels me to examine overt and covert violations and offenses (i.e., "sins"). Moral inventories (audits) are conducted routinely. I found therapy, at times, to be similar to a confession--especially when I was discussing my own violations, lies. This is HARD! Just as hard if not even moreso than disclosing what someone else has done. Yet, it is also extremely cleansing and liberating. Transparency of conscience is, in fact, a huge factor in my being alive today. In this regard, my faith was my salvation. If you are asking whether lying is a "feature" of PTSD, I would say, "No." Lying is a learned "behavior" that is usually perpetuated with a pattern of reinforcement for doing so. It's an amazingly powerful place to be and I commend you for your courage in doing so. Hang in there!
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Clarification (if it was not obvious)...
"Transparency of conscience" is a powerful place to be... Not lying. I feel wacked in the head today. Excuse me.
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Betch'a never seen a wacked booger before!
Ha!
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I was told and was under the umpression that because when I was being abused I has no control over what was happening to me that seeking control in my life was a direct result of that. Lying was definately a way to control. If you have not had a history of lying in the past than I would say yes it is probally related.
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