Monday August 31, 2015
Since my diagnosis, I have been struggling with myself. I am so much stronger than my body will let me be. My skin is just red, splotchy, bruised, and pale. This heliotrope rash is driving me crazy. And the 7 different pill bottles and 3 topicals are doing nothing to fix it.
I just want to cry today. I have no energy, no motivation to even get off the couch and eat. ...
There's few places you can be brutally honest about how you feel. This is one of them.
Right now I feel like saying "Why doesn't God just kill me now and get it over with?"
I know that's just a feeling. I recently heard someone tell the story about fact, faith and feeling - was it faith? It think the middle one was faith - walking down a wall: fact in front, faith in the middle, and f...