What is Physical Emotional Abuse
Abuse is a general term for the treatment of someone that causes some kind of harm (to the abused person, to the abusers themselves, or to someone else) or is unlawful or wrongful....
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Yesterday was one of the worst days, I did not sleep the night before at all. I was so upset. This relationship really messed my head up. I know there are behaviors with in myself that I have to change due to my past. But with him, it was like no matter what I did I was not the right thing even when it was. I can see my self crying to him and him making fun of me, "Wha Wha you little cry baby grow up" or if I told him he hurt my feelings he would just say" you were hurt before I meet you". When he pushed me, he never actually hit me, and I would fall, he would say you are such a good actress, then if I tried to talk to him about what he had done, he would say I am one crafty chick for making him feel guilty.
Then of course the time he spit on me ten times and just left me lay there. And the next day he was angry at me for it. I could not trust him at all. I did in the beginning but I just felt so alone. I got depressed started drinking by myself- not a good thing at all, it just made everything worse, then that gave him something else to blame me for. I just feel bad for being so jealous at times, I know that is something I need to work on, but it was done out of fear not control. I was just scared of being hurt and look I enede up hurt anyway. He told me I am the only one who makes him this angry. Maybe he is right. Maybe I just am so damaged I cannot have a good relationship. This is my fourth relationship that has ened up bad and abusive, there must be something wrong with me.Thank you for just listening it helps to get it out. Posted on 11/06/09, 09:11 am |
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butterfly -----
I'm sorry for your pain. We all have characteristics that we could change and maybe life would be better. No matter what those characterstics are, no one has a right to abuse us. Do you have characteristics that, changed, might facilitate a better life for yourself? Probably. But NO ONE has a right to abuse you, no matter what. butterfly ----- do you have a counselor or therapist or somone with whom you're working to explore how to find the path to a healthier future? If not, could you consider looking for one? If money's an issue, social service agencies or the local women's center might be a place to begin. Please take very good care of yourself. You are a flower on the stem of the universe, not some jerk's spitoon! 
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I'm sorry butterfly. Those were horrible things. You didn't deserve any of that. You have done nothing wrong.He is blaming you for his bad behavior. I hope you can get a good counselor or someone else for support. Sometimes we (because we are kind) or were raised in a dysfunction family, we tend to attact users. They do it cause they can. Go to a counseler, talk to someone in a abuse shelter or read books. You will begin to see. I wish you the best.
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