What is Physical Emotional Abuse
Abuse is a general term for the treatment of someone that causes some kind of harm (to the abused person, to the abusers themselves, or to someone else) or is unlawful or wrongful....
Join Now
|
Sisyphus
|
Watch this |
| View More Posts Ignore |
I know what I need to do. I have a list of things I'd be working on right now if I could.
After being betrayed and called all kinds of names by a "friend' and an acquaintance, I felt bad, talked about it (in another post) and hoped to move on. But it's not getting any better. I had some money-making work (thank Elvis) and this distracted me for a couple of days. I'd hoped this would help, but here I am not wanting to get out of bed again; not able to tackle simple projects. "Why?" something inside me keeps asking. "What good will come? Why bother?" All my personal writings have become stilted and gray. I keep wanting to give myself a positive answer, but I can't find one I truly believe in. How many other people will project their issues on me and abuse me this way? All I've ever dreamed of is doing positive things with my life. I'm not looking for accolades, but I was hoping for more acceptance than abuse. The closest I can ever get to happiness is to be alone. Then I can do what I've done through my whole life, sit and look out the window at all the people who are allowed to be happy, who are allowed to have families and love. I've been here before and worked my way out. I will again, I'm sure -- just as soon as I stop feeling like Sisyphus. I want a better life plan than feeling sorry for myself. I know what I have to do. I have a list. So far all I've successfully included is, "take a shower." Posted on 07/03/09, 02:07 pm |
| 6 Replies | Add Your Reply |
| View More Posts Ignore |
One of the things that can change a life is a excellent support system. I have found that here, and you can too. Just continue to post, reply to posts you can relate to, and continue to get yourself involved.
Of course you deserve to be happy. So, keep coming back. There are lots of knowledgeable people who can offer support and suggestions, who may have walked a similar path to your own.. You could probably manage on your own, but why do that when there is an easier way? Yes, it may take some time to get the results you are looking for, but anything worthwhile takes time, So, If you want to get some real joy in your life, keep coming back! Hugs and best wishes go out to you. PS: You might meet up with some negativity on this site, but it is minimal, and unfortunately, that's part of life. However, most people here would not intentionally project their issues on you or abuse you. 
|
|
|
|
||
| View More Posts Ignore |
Thanks, Susan.
|
|
|
|
||
| View More Posts Ignore |
You're welcome! Glad you checked into the site today!
|
|
|
|
||
| View More Posts Ignore |
I used to have a support network here. One friend just moved to Europe and others have left DS or just disappeared. (I'm worried about a couple of these people.)
But I see you're also a member of "PHYSICAL & VERBAL ABUSE SURVIVORS." I'm thinking of trying that group. Perhaps they are less cliquish.
|
|
|
|
||
| View More Posts Ignore |
It's whatever you feel comfortable with, but I would encourage you to keep reaching out.
|
|
|
|
||
| View More Posts Ignore |
I very much appreciate your responses. They make me feel a bit better.
But I've responded to posts here and helped a lot of people all over DS. To keep begging for attention and to be treated like others will simply make me more depressed. I've been seriously put down by people controlled by their fears -- one of which was supposed to be a friend. Having to plead for a response on top of that can't make things better. I'm already at the point where I can't do my work. Nobody listened to me when I was a kid being heavily abused at home. Shall I allow that pattern to develop here? No. It would kill me. And I've already stopped trusting people here. I will repost. Just not in this forum.
|
|
|
|
||
| Add Your Reply |
