Friday January 30, 2015
nothing seems important anymore.
i want to make joshua proud, but i dont have the strength to get up anymore.
ive lost 15 pounds already, and its still dropping rapidly. thats an extra 6 pounds i lost prior to being pregnant.
food is disgusting to me, i cant force myself to eat more than a granola bar.
my hands wont stop shaking, i cant stand without being dizzy.
it feels like im slowly dying ins...
AdvertisementMy Dad's a diabetic. He's got just about every complication, including a less common joint problem called Charcot's joint. It's actually the opposite of gangrene, but he gets to keep the foot. Now he's lost it. There's been too much damage, the foot wasn't viable anymore. He went into surgery at 5:30 pm for a below-the-knee amputation (BKA). Don't go rushing to sen...
I had a complete melt down last night. I've been feeling like a ball and chain at work. They hired me for IT more than 6 years ago. It was a career path that I had made substantial sacrafices to get into in my mid 30's. Over the last 6+ years though, management has taken away ALL of my IT responsibilities and either outsourced them or hired other people and delegated them away. I had other skills...
Hello everyone I won't be able to take the high school courses that I wanted to take to help me since I did not learn Much In High school dueTo being in ECE classess I called the school today and they said since I graduated they could not help me and I cant take the courses. I don't know what I am going to do I cant go to college. because I don't know my basics I did not get to take the regualr c...
Its dark in the house, everyone is sound asleep except for me. Wide awake. "How? Its 4AM in the morning!" I think to myself. I sigh in discuss of myself as I walk down the hall to the living room. I grab my laptop thats sitting neatly on the coffee table. I sit down onto the couch, kicking back and relaxing with my laptop on my lap. I open it up and awaken the brightness of my screen. I go to Pet...
i thought i would take the time to go threw all my relationships with men that i have had in my life to see if it has anything to do with my lack of interest in ever finding a relationship again :
my dad ----- left me and my mum and had a new family just a year later. i rearly saw him until the age of 9... i wanted one on one time with him to get to know him better this never happened.
my step da...
Got a new boss 3wks ago..Its been awful @wrk ever since..Shes a bully..I feel like I should quit. . Starting to hate what I do. .I feel I may relapse. I haven't felt this way in years..Not just work.marriage is falling apart. ..I just want to go away from it all.I want to share :
I have this dream. I have been having this dream for years. It is a dream based on a memory. I want to share the memory. This particular memory. Brings me the greatest joy I have ever felt and the lowest sadness I have ever had to endure.
Alot of people know that before there was Terry there was David. David and I met when I was 18. After spending our first day together. I calle...
I AM SO SAD LIFE IS HARD BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN DIZZNESS FOR MONTHS ,,I BEEN TO DOCOTOR,,I HAD SUREGRY ON MY CYSTS,,I NEED ANOTHER SURGERY AND I FOUND I WAS ANIEMA,,,,SO IT HARD ,,AND NOW I BEEN DIZZNESS FOR MONTHS,,I BEEN TO EAR DOCOTOR,,I DONT NOT HAVE INNER EAR PROMBLEM,,SO I THINK TINNUS EARS,,THERE NO CURE BUT I AM NOT SURE YET,,I HAVE LIFE BEEN DIZZY ALL MY LIFE,,IT SO HARD,,,BECAUSE THERE NO ...
MAY I DIE EARLY
MAY I DIE BLOODY
MAY I NEVER LIVE PAST 33
MAY I DIE IN MY SLEEP
MAY I DIE
MAY I NEVER BE ALIVE
MAY I DIE SOON
MAY I DIE IN JUNE