What is Obsessive Compulsive Disorder OCD
Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) is a psychiatric disorder, more specifically, an anxiety disorder. OCD is manifested in a variety of forms, but is most commonly characterized b...
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I feel like my OCD has gotten worse. I'm so distressed, because I keep having intrusive thoughts about a person, and it not only makes me want to avoid them, but it also makes me want to avoid anything associated with them. Well, this person is a marketer for a living, and his company represents different movie companies. I wanted to be an actress as my career, and for the first time I actually thought that it was what I was meant to do, that this emotional stress somehow benefited me that way because now I know what real pain feels like. But now my OCD is making me want to avoid acting and creativity! This distresses me so much, because I love acting, and I love creativity, and yet my OCD is making me want to avoid those things, and I don't want to!!! I feel like this will never end, and I feel like I'll never be able to enjoy my life again. I just feel so depressed, can anyone comfort me somehow? I know you're not supposed to reassure people, but just anything comforting might get me out of my funk. I don't know how I would live if I wasn't able to express my creativity, I think that's one of the beautiful things about life, and OCD had to ruin it!
Posted on 11/07/09, 06:11 pm |
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Well, I don't think you have another choice than being optimistic.. :)
Here's what I'm doing now and I can feel an improvement: First, I talked to a psychologist which said "OCD!". That helped because now I know what's up with me. Then (on my own initiative) I started writing a diary on my negative thoughts and other thoughts what I do etc. - one or more paragraphs each day. This helps, because I'm completely honest to myself about what I'm thinking and what I'm feeling. I've also started reading the book Feeling good by David D. Burns which gave me more food for thought, and inspired me to add notes to the diary about why I'm thinking the way I do, and what I should do about it. I've quit drinking coffee (as I've read that augments OCD) and I've started taking Zoloft. It is quite the shotgun approach, but I feel optimistic it will work. Today for the first time in a long time I had a moment where I felt relaxed, happy and optimistic. Getting fixed is a process, if you work at it and give it time, I think you can do well. But talk to professionals for guidance for starters! :) 
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Oh and another thing.. I'm on partial sick leave as well, and taking it EASY'N'SLOW.. ;)
And I try to walk an hour a day, sometimes I skip it because I don't feel like it.
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