Ok, so this is my first posting here. I haven't been to the dr or anything, so i thought i'd start here. And i'm also not officially diagnosed with OCD, but i would greatly appreciate anyone to read this and let me know what u think. i'm almost 100% confident that i have partial ocd...not full fledged. but there is something not right. for the past 3 or more years, i've been having certain symptoms. i have a thing about numbers and touching things a certain amt of times. a few examples...almost everything i do, i count in 4's. like it has to be an even #. to be more specific, if i'm on the computer and i'm scrolling down the page, i count how many clicks it took to get to the bottom. or if i'm
reading an assignment for
school, sometimes i'll subconsiously count the # of letters in the words. and when i'm at home by myself it's at it's worst. like everything i do, i have to touch something over and over until it feels "right". and in the back of my head i'll picture something bad, particularly death happening to someone i love, like my son, fiance, or a family member. like in my mind i'll think, ok if i don't do this then "so and so" is gonna get into a car accident. anyways, i know this post sounds very peculiar but it's literally the first time i've ever told a soul. im very good at controlling it whn ppl are around. but as soon as im by myself, it consumes alot of my time. i found out i had symptoms when i was
reading about negative thoughts. bc out of nowhere w out me trying, my mind will wander and always bring up something negative or about something in the past that bothers me. and i won't even be trying to think of these things. so, as i was doing
research on that, i came across ocd, and one of the websites said that they could be connected. anyways, im sorry this is SO long! i really do have lots of other examples that i could've listed. but i didnt' want to go too overboard on post length. please if anyone has any insight, please comment! i don't have insurance and can not afford to see a doctor or psychiatrist. so your help would be appreciated!! thanks for
reading:))
Posted on 10/29/09, 11:10 pm
It sounds like OCD only because you do things just right so "nothing bad will happen". This would fall into the category of Compulsive Ordering and Symmetry Obsessions. But that is just my unprofessional opinion. If you are doing a task to make your anxiety go away then there is a problem. Seek out a qualified OCD therapist who specializes in that area. Stop doing the compulsions and face uncertainty. Again I am not an expert, just someone who has it and has been diagnosed with it by a professional. 
