Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Support Group

I know exactly what you mean. I want to just tell myself "Its just OCD," but what if its not. What if its God trying to tell me something. Its too hard for me to distinguish. I guess the only comfort we can have is knowing that the Lord knows and our minds and isn't going to try and communicate with us in ways that we'd be uncertain about. He'd be much more deliberate and clear I like to think. I have sought out medical help and needless to say, it is helping but not that much. I want to give up so badly sometimes. But I must peservere. Just looks like our crosses are really heavy to bear. Sometimes I feel like I've been pushed down to the ground and I"m suffocating under the weight. I do encourage you to get help. It is really necessary in cases of bad OCD.

thats classic Ocd. what if its not ocd and im actually gay. or something else blah blah. tricks of the ilness. makes you think somethings wrong with you when its clearly just ocd but its the anxiety that makes you think otherwise and causes you so much confussion

Yes it sounds like classic OCD. My therapist pointed out to me that if the sentence starts with What if you can propably bet that its an ocd fear. I can understand your fears of going to a therapist. I had those same fears when I first went. I am really glad I did. You have so much experience it sounds like you all ready know the truth you are just experiencing ocd doubts. Talking to someone could help you feel some reassurance. I look forward to hearing about what you decide. Good luck and know that you are not alone!

Thank you so much everyone for your kindness in replying, it helps a lot! It took me a few days to respond though because I realized that my compulsion is reassurance seeking...so I've been trying a little ERP on myself and resisting the urge to check DS :)

I'm thankful for what you said Dimples about how it is comforting knowing that the Lord knows our minds and isn't going to try and communicate with us in ways we'd be uncertain about, that He is very clear and deliberate. One of my friends just told me too that God is the best communicator...if we have to wonder if it's Him speaking, then it isn't. We won't ever wonder, we'll know because He knows how to communicate with us.

Yes, anxiety causes so much confusion! All those "what-if" thoughts that loop endlessly as I ruminate over and over and over....not fun!

I just started reading "When in Doubt, Make Belief" by Jeff Bell. He mentions asking 5 questions whenever we feel anxiety/fear and have a doubting thought:

1. Does this doubt evoke far more anxiety than either curiosity or prudent caution?

2. Does this doubt pose a series of increasingly distressing "what if" questions?

3. Does this doubt stem from logic-defying and/or black-white assumptions?

4. Does this doubt prompt a strong urge to act--or avoid acting--in a fashion others might perceive as excessive, in order to reduce the anxiety it creates?

5. Would you be embarrassed or frightened to explain your "what-if" questions to a police officer or work supervisor?

*If we answer yes, then we are responding to our fear-based doubt...it's just anxiety/OCD.
*He does say that when we are in the midst of anxiety/fear/OCD that these questions don't help...

Anyway, this post got kinda long...I'm looking forward to reading the rest of this book and applying its principles! And I'm still looking into calling a therapist....found one on IOCDF website. I'll keep you posted!

I know exactly what you are talking about and that is DEFINITELY OCD talking right there!
It's the doubting disease.

I said the same thing 13 years ago and guess what I just decided for the first time since then the diagnosis she gave me was right.I have been going around trying to figure this all out for this long.I think she was right about my other diagnosis too.Not taking care of one disorder just kept turning into another and another disorder.Funny cause a couple weeks ago my daughter said to me she definitely has OCD well I wonder where that came from.I have been waiting months for an appointment and figured it all out on here what is going on with me and it is everything the doc said 13 years ago.Unbelievable do I feel like a nut case now,lol.

Trust me. I was diagnosed OCD a few years ago and I STILL think that way... "oh, well it's gotten worse... maybe it's something else now!?!?". It's always an uphill battle...

I did it!

I called my doctor...she prescribed Lorazapam to tide me over until I start seeing a therapist.

My intake is scheduled for next week Thursday!

Excited to get a grip on this.