I've been
dating my boyfriend for three years, and it's been a long distance relationship. When I was younger I used to cheat on him, not that he's completely innocent, and I never did tell him -everything.- Until the end of last
school year. It became an obsession, I had to tell him every little detail. Driving us both crazy. We've ended up taking a couple breaks, and we're sorta back together now. Ever since that happened, though, I've become obsessive about being faithful to him. It doesn't help that he considers thinking of others as being a way of unfaithfulness. So now I'm completely freaking out because the latest obsessive thought is that I want someone else, and right now I'm terrified because I think I want this guy I had a crush on and it's driving mad with guilt.
Posted on 09/15/09, 06:09 pm
Also--I love my boyfriend and he makes me very happy. I just don't know what to do about the thoughts, and I don't see my therapist until Friday. 
