What is Obsessive Compulsive Disorder OCD
Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) is a psychiatric disorder, more specifically, an anxiety disorder. OCD is manifested in a variety of forms, but is most commonly characterized b...
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Why does my success in life have to suffer because of my disability?
I have a college degree, & I feel like I'll never get to succeed as the translator that I want to be because I always fail exams, due to my mental disability. & people keep thinking I'm making invalid excuses, & they don't care about my extenuating circumstances. They're heartless, & I've experienced other people with disabilities, as well as without them, who tell me I use my disability as an excuse. I don't. Why try to do something I don't have to do, but want to do it. If I were to make excuses for failing exam, like people falsely accusing me of not studying, then why did I sign up for it? That's the 1st step to my goal, right? I'm 26 & still get talked to & treated like a child. I have a BA degree. I was trying to take an exam this morning, & it was timed, & they weren't giving exceptions. They didn't care about your disability. I had 2 parts & didn't even get to finish 1/2 of the 1st part. The exam coordinator told me, "You should have informed us of your disability prior to taking the exam." He also sent us this in an e-mail memo. [IMPORTANT INSTRUCTIONS!! PLEASE READ CAREFULLY AND COMPLY! Dear Student: Tomorrow, you will receive your translation test via e-mail. Please make sure that you understand the instructions on how to open an attachment, how to save and name the file on your computer and how to return it at the appropriate time. If you fail to comply with these instructions, your test will NOT be accepted. This will NOT be argued under any circumstances. The test has two parts: 1) a short translation of about 300 words and 2) a short essay of about 150-250 words. DO NOT return the exam in 2 separate files. Return the whole exam all at once according to the instructions. You will have 1 hour and 45 minutes from the time the exam was sent to you to return the test.] I had a situation back in May, where I was discriminated against by the coordinatior because of my disability, so I was afraid to say something this time. She INTENTIONALLY didn't send me an exam back in May & kept dodging & ignoring me, & I know my nervous disability had something to do with it. I talked to her prior to the exam on May 15, & she was very snotty & hateful, with an attitude because of my stuttering. My feelings also get hurt very easily, but she was harsh. Just understand that I was afraid to say something this time because of fear of the same thing happening again, & the exam instructions also say that with this being timed, there are no exceptions to being late or incomplete. So I felt it was better to turn it in on time & incomplete, rather than an hour & 1/2 later, with leaving you under the impression that I INTENTIONALLY didn't follow instructions. I tried to follow instructions as best as I could. ***Why are so many people so heartless & don't give a damn? I had 2 strokes @ age 5, & OCD, Tourette's, anxiety, & depression, & with my OCD, I was unsure & had to go back & keep checking for the proper expressions/words for the passage. I know & understand that extended time is not allowed. But my disability has to suffer for this. I tried my best for this exam. Posted on 09/12/09, 11:09 pm |
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Yes, it is unfortunate that OCD and other mental and physical disabilities can be so painful, misunderstood and can hurt our lives in all areas (academically, professionally, socially and personally). OCD has destroyed and ruined all areas of my life. I fought it as hard as I could for as long as I could and actually had some significant progress over several years. However, I lost so many years to OCD that I had to also change all my goals and the way I saw myself and the world around me. Sometimes we have to accept things, change goals (more realistic, simpler) and move on.
The world has always been cold and always will be. We all know life is not fair. I often think the world was designed for and run by "winners". It took me many years (a couple of decades, actually) to let go of some things and accept my lot in life. I feel alot better because of it. Not easy at all. I never did expect strangers, co-workers or friends to understand. How could they? I would not if this did not happen to me. My family, after 35 yrs of OCD and GAD and other psych disorders, still understands very little. I wish youi luck with getting mentally healthier. I hope you realize someday your mental health is your #1 priority and everything else is a distant second. What good is a career, romance, friendship or whatever, if you are so disabled and so tormented by OCD that you can not enjoy any of it? Have you ever tried ERP (aka BT/CBT)? How many anti-anxiety meds and an ti-depressants have you tried? I understand your frustration, anger and confusion better than you know. Remember, the World health Organization (WHO) proclaimned OCD as "one of the ten most disabling conditions in the world". So, there is one international body that understands. We OCDers also understand you as do a few select shrinks that specialize in OCD. Good luck and best wishes and see your fight against OCD as a marathon instead of a sprint. 
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Thanks. I didn't know the WHO viewed that as most disabling. No WONDER I feel mentally cripple sometimes!
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I feel mentally crippled from this disorder and others.
Is VERY frustrating.No, people do not understand what it feels when your brain gets "stuck". And you are like temporarily paralyzed from it.
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What translator exam was is it? the Court certification exam for translators?
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