Myofascial Pain Syndrome Support Group

I feel like I have done nothing but rest during the whole of the last year off from work, except it's not quite true. Up until a few weeks ago my sleeps were 'shallow' sleeps, fraught with nightmares and talking / shouting in my sleep. Not exactly restful. Indeed, I rarely woke up rested.

And then I began to get better, ever so slowly, slowly slowly slowly. So slow it baffled 'normal'people. So I did a bit more, and got injured from the wrong exercise, had a few minor falls, but mainly the psychological injuries from the work situation. But, bit by painful bit, I edged towards 'better'. And then got whoopig cough, and that laid me out for weeks, just resting.

But just recently, I've been working on accepting that no matter how well I manage the condition with medication, stretches and planning 'n' pacing, I am never going to be well enough to be able to return to my 'career' as it was. Never. It's really hard to accept, to understand. Asunda gets it! The need to rest, but also the energy it takes to stay in a situation that doesn't really fit properly (I'm sure she posted that somewhere recently). I was never really 'me' at work. I was damn good at what I did, but not really 'me', which is why I think I was a bit of an enigma :)

Accepting this ending is doing weird things to me! I'm just sleeping all the time! And it's restful sleep. Curled up weirdly on my slightly-too-short-sofa, just sleeping. Yesterday's a blank, today turned out more so! Me + sofa + blanket + diazepam = hours of sleep. I'm sure I was meant to be doing stuff today, it'll come, in it's own time.

Auntkat posted something recently abut overuse injuries that explained why the rest is so important - when we hurt it's because of microtrauma to muscles, tendons etc that need time and rest to heal. I'm really understanding it now, it's really sunk in this time. And every minute for me now at work is more microtraumas!
Posted on 07/17/12, 01:00 pm