Miscarriage Support Group

In exactly one week it will be my sons 1st birthday. He was alive for only 9 days in the NICU. I am dreading this whole month. A lot of painful days coming up that is just too hard to bear. I am so tired. I don't know how I am going to make it through this month. I just want to crawl in a hole. I should be preparing for my baby's big birthday party with our family and friends. Instead I am having to decorate his tombstone at the cemetary. A mother shouldn't have to bury her child. Life is so unfair. Every week it seems, I find out someone else I know just had a baby or is pregnant. Most of these women are younger than me and are just graduating high school. What did I do wrong? Why can't I get one healthy child? Instead my children die. It isn't right. I miss my children so much. All I want in life is to be a mother and it just isn't happening. I feel empty without my children.
Posted on 07/02/12, 08:17 am