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I got the call that our 4th IVF cycle was a failure. I am absolutely crushed right now. I can't figure out why they keep putting back good embryos and they never implant. I am heart broken and scared of what all of this means. My fear is making me angry. THIS IS JUST NOT FAIR!!! I deserve to be a Mommy. I deserve to feel a child growing inside me, to raise them and teach them all I can. ...
We did everything right that we could think of. DF worked so hard to get his counts up, I stopped most of my meds as hard as it was, I went on bed rest for five days, we talked to the embryos all the time, we prayed and prayed. I don't know what else we could of done different. This is just so unfair. I am so hurt and angry right now. We are not giving up though. I have more fight in me...
I can't fucking take much more! I am so tired of asking God for strength to get through things. I always get it but it is not what I want the most. I want a child! I want a family! I have not gotten that yet I always get the strength to get through all the painful shit in my life. I have survived enough. Battled through enough. Hurt enough. My BF called me Saturday. We talked for over a half ...
Our son alex was born yesterday stillborn. The doctor said that there was nothing that josh or i could have done to prevent it from happening. that it just happened. it was just nature's way of saying that something was wrong with the baby. The doctor gave me some scripts for meds. He kept me in the hospital for a while to keep an eye on me, but said that since i was handling it so well that ...
I have been having a hard time lately with the baby/child thing. I think the holidays are making it worse. Not to mention half my friends and women I work closely with are pregnant. I am really feeling left out and sad. I usually hold my head high and truck on through but lately it is not so easy. Someone just walked in with their 15 month old dressed up and he looks so cute. My BF and another fr...
MY UNCLE HAS BEEN IN CRITICAL CONDITION FOR MORE THAN A WEEK. TODAY DOCTORS DIDN'T THINK HE WOULD MAKE THE NIGHT. I JUST GOT A PHONE CALL A FEW MINUTES AGO FROM MY AUNT SAYING HE PASSED. I'M GOING TO MISS HIM VERY MUCH. BUT HE WAS SUFFERING AND I DON'T WISH THAT ON AMYONE SO I'M GLAD GOD CALLED HIM HOME AND NOW HE IS IN PEACE.
TODAY IS MY 28TH BIRTHDAY AND I AM SOO ANGRY. I FEEL LIKE BREAKING SOMETHING. I AM IN SOOO MUCH PAIN. THESE FUCKIN GODDMENED PILLLS AINT FUCKIN MY LIFE. MY LIFE FEELS RUINED. I HAD ENOUGH. I EXPLODED AT MY MOMS CUZ I JUST HAD IT. I GOT SAD LOOKIN AT HER SAD. I JUST CAN'T GO OUT CUZ OF TOO MUCH PAIN. I AM HAVING NERVOSU BREAK DOWNS. FUCKIN ER CAN'T DO SHIT CUZ IN THE PAST THEY NEVER SO I C...