What is Meth Addiction
Methamphetamine (also referred to as methylamphetamine or desoxyephedrine) is a synthetic stimulant drug used for both medicinal and recreational purposes (see Legal issues). Metha...
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I am 17 i started about a year ago and due to me being a user a lot of people i spend time with are much older and been using many years longer so yeah 1 year sounds not long. the first time i did it was with my dad see hes 37 and been on and off user since about 17 or 18 i know with the life of using many spend time in jail or prison he was gone almost all my life in and out of prison well, i guess to make this long story shorter hes now clean (which that goes into a long story due to he went back to jail hes out now and clean) i still use, that he doesn't know of well at least that i know of when i started i got my best friend jak to do it too to this day we still both using often always together and getting high or doing the waiting game or looking for money i pawned about everything in my room i think about finding a job but for all the wrong reasons wanting the job for cash to get high but i get high everyday i think about getting around to looking i dropped out of high school because id smoke right before i walked through the school doors and i would be out on the streets till 4 am every morning before school never slept ate go on like this for days or however long i could push my body to go without often id force myself to try to eat about 5th or 6th day so id go into class high and think everyone knew i was high and doing drugs as fuck so would just leave this went on for days till i just dropped out now i'm starting to shoot up whenever i get the chance i have shared needles with few people and really i'm fully convinced i have this under control and there's no problem no addiction nothing wrong but 1 thing that gets me is when my friend jak brings up stopping for a while taking a break i almost get mad i say "why that's stupid you don't need a break your fine but whatever if you want then go ahead i don't care i'm not taking one i don't need to" the thought of even a week break pisses me off so i don't know just if anyone's got input or a comment on all this i'd like that
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You are so young. It scares me that you are apart of that life. I got clean by going to A A . It doesnt matter if your an alcholic or not just go.
It saved my life, You dont have to live this way if you dont want to. 
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i really shouldnt waste anyone heres time me stopping wont happen i mean i just got a little last night a 40 loaded it all in the bowl now im already thinking of how to get money
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Your not wasting anyone's time!~You posted on this board, so that says something to me. I understand the battle within. I started using drugs very young too. I was able to carry on life to some degree, but eventually it bites you in the ass. Trust me. You will never control meth. It gets into your very soul, chews you up, and spits you out. ~You already quit school because of your use. It will only get worse from here if you keep using. Jails, institutions, and death. Those are the 3 options that face you if you keep using.
The drug will warp your mind, so that you no longer care to live. That's why you are taking risks with your life, i.e. sharing needles. You don't think it matters. Meth is pure evil, it tells you lies. But the truth is: It does matter! You are a young man, with so much life to enjoy. Trust me bud, there is SO much more to see,learn, and discover about yourself and the world. Once your clean, you can see it all clear, and while the world is not always a perfect place, it holds many, many gifts. I say this to you to give you a different perspective. You said your Dad is clean, and I don't know what your relationship is like with him, or if he is working a 12 step program. If he is working a program, maybe you could talk to him. I truly hope you consider getting help. If you ever decide to get help, Narcotics Anonymous is a great place to start. Just remember this: THERE IS A SOLUTION. ~Lesley.
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I knew someone that was 7 years clean and sober and only 21 years old. He was going to Law school and I was totally jealous of him. lol
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Oh dear, we see your future so clearly. Your on a trip to hell. My daughter started at 13 using drugs. After a bad experience 3 yrs ago she stuck her first needle in her arm. I started out being angry but found that is not who I was. I tried taking her to rehab. She had me in tears by the time I walked out. She laughed in my face. She would tell me over that year that she "didn't want to stop" She liked how she felt. She felt normal when she was high. Don't think we don't understand what your talking about. But if you don't really want us to tell you how to try and help yourself, why did you even write? So many have walked in your shoes. You were exposed to this most of your life. Your angry because you like what you are experiencing. But what you experience when your high is not real. It is not your friend. It IS your worst enemy. My daughter sits in jail. Please don't follow your fathers life. Break the cycle. Get help. Look on www.kci.com. There are lots of ideas there. Go walk into an NA meeting. This drug will take you down a path that you will not be able to control. Find out what is inside you that makes you feel this way. Blessings.
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