Meth Addiction & Recovery Support Group

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i know that meth takes away ones joy and that joy is hard to find again, but one does eventually find it. alchohol was always the drug of choice in my family growing up and i never thought i could enjoy a picnic without a some type of alcoholic beverage, that is, until i tried it. the revovery is slow but steady. if only we were able to see the big picture. you will overcome this because you want to and you WILl find your joy.

Get you a balance scale write down all the bad things about using put it on one side then write down all of the good things about not using and be real thourough and put it on the other side and weight the differances go with which side wins...Luv Deral

i find myself in the very same position as u are. my drugs of choice is extacy,acid.cocaine,meth.
i have a daughter i love her to death but i cant deal with her unless im high on something, i cant handle waking up in all hours of the night unless im on coke.like if im on coke i never got ot sleep and also i never do acid around her or extacy unless someone is watching her. but i just hate life unless theres drugs in it i feel i should have never brought her into this world.she doesnt deserve a mother being like this depressed and drunk or high or anything just a happy family but it doesnt seem to work out that way

what else are we suppose to do

You my friend are excaping reality and to think you must be high in order to take care of a child thats defensless and innocent. Your priorities are really messed up your blood child comes first then your love for her as to never rely on drugs to do this walk thru life and take the best care you can of her because one day you will need her to take care of you and if mommy was always high then she will be a prime candidate to become an addict and addicts dont take care of anyone but their selves and old mom will just have to pee in her gown and share her thoughts and hurts w/ herself.Dont be foolish I put myself before my child in my addiction and by the time I finally got to build a relationship w/ my 20yr old son he committed suicide by hanging himself and now I will always reap what Ive sown dont let the evil one tell you lies of such things as what you are doing you are in misery now and drugs help you escape the reallity of taking good care of that presious child ,oh what I would give to have a child to mold and teach how to love ,care and be my best friend .Kids are not stupid they know whats going on they may not know the direct details but they do know this is not right therefor they investigate and they find out things that can destroy your chances at having joy peace love and most of all a relationship that last from death to death,children are a precious gift from God and if He see's you are not taking care of that gift then he will intervein and take that gift from you for the childs sake and yours so you really should get it together and focus on being sober and building a loving relationship w/ your child so that when you do go to your resting home you wont die alone,remember all things go full circle and what you do now is gonna reflect on what happens to you later so dont let something as lite as a feather divide your future w/ your child and not only that its so easy to go to jail now days for neglect and child abuse.Not that Im implementing anything but the ones that you think are your friends are really your enemies and could care less about you or your child and the first time you make one of them mad at you they will call CPS and seperate you from your bundle of joy.You know a bridge can still be used w/ some boards missing but if all of the boards are missing then the journey gets longer and harder.Whatever you do just remember that a child has Angels watching over them and they do report to God daily so careful,rethink what you are doing cuz if its bad now just you waite it will get worse if you continue to put the drugs before the most precious things in Gods eyes...Luv Deral

Thanks for the replies... Deral - my problem right now is that the bad things about using just aren't really that bad at the moment, and the good things about not using just seem like they'd be better if I was using! I understand (and know from personal experience) that sooner or later things will go downhill (and all at once as well!), but at the moment, the phrase that keeps coming to mind is 'don't fix it if it ain't broken!'

...And yet if it were that simple I'd have my answer and I wouldn't be here looking for help. I don't hate reality or being straight, I'm happy when I am. It's just that I'm happier when I'm high.

Your last sentence is what you need to work on.
The drugs make you THINK your happier.

Dear Freesia using meth is a progressive drug another words today a quarter gram may get you through the day but tommarow it might take a half of a gram and on and on until you are doing things you wouldn't normally do to get high,now lets look at the health issues at hand your heart is the most delicate and important organ in your body it gets its rest when you rest and its a muscle and an overworked muscle gets bigger therefore you end up w/ an enlarged heart which leads to heart failure or arithmic ademia all of which is not good (death)and your teeth and bones loose their density and the teeth begin to rot and cause bad breath and large dental bills the teflon between your bone disapates and arthritis sets in and your motivation is limited now let me ask you this but first Ill say this all of these things happen while you are young and that means you have aged 4 times faster than normal .?do you feel good about using now or has my personel expierance been taken w/ a grain of salt.I dont know you or how old you are but what I do know is if you wont listen to truth then wear padded cloths all of the time cuz rock bottom will come and rock bottom is an understatement.I really wish you well and if you need to talk more just let us know but remember you are a part of us..Luv Deral

this deral guy is pissing me off when hes like if u need my help ill listen and u know what he never listened he only likes to hear himself talk and kept going on and on about his own shit so as u can tell hes gotta be the last one to have a say in everything so yeah jsut so u all know

Are you mad a Deral or mad at yourself?