What is Marijuana Addiction
The drug cannabis, commonly known as marijuana, is produced from parts of the cannabis plant, primarily the cured flowers and gathered trichomes of the female plant. The major acti...
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First, blessings to this group and to the online MA folks. This sense of community has really been a heart balm for me.
I had a few clean days, feeling shaky but at least relieved that I had "turned a corner" and then a friend stayed overnight on a business trip and brought weed and we smoked. No, he didn't know I was quitting, he doesn't know I have "a problem," he is a very casual user...the weed was given to him (just to forestall questions). I am responsible for myself...I let it happen, but I don't want that to happen again. Okay, back in the game. This is my life. I won't give up. I thought about all the aspects of what happened. In my entourage I'm the only addict, and there are only three friends who smoke casually...I just sent an email to one (who sometimes buys it) saying "I quit," she'll be loving and supporting, I know. The second already knows I'm doing online support groups and am struggling, she too will want to help me, and the third - this fellow - we are not close enought to warrant an "I'm an addict heart to heart," but when we speak in the next few days, I will tell him I quit, andhe will respect it too. I know no dealers, no other addicts - just saying that makes me feel safer. So, my sad experience at least helped me to wake up to other potential danger spots and made effort to prevent another relapse. Does anyone have any similar experiences? Pleas share. Many thanks to all. Hanging on... Posted on 11/09/09, 02:11 am |
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I hope you continue to seek support here and other relevent meetings.
I suggest you find new friends and people to do things with who don't smoke. There's a whole world of people out here who don't do drugs and who love life, who can be a postivie infulence and help to you! God bless you in your journey towards recovery. 
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Thank you Margiesfriend (gorgeous kitty in the photo).
The irony is I'M the only pothead in my circle...and I have no source...another irony is, after talking to those two friends (for whom mj is NOT as issue) mentioned above, they not only warmly encouraged me in my path, they both started talking about how they were concerned about their own alcohol use...which is not one of MY problems...
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Thanks for qualifying. I'm proud of you and wish you the best. I also found stepchat online which is a very helpful site. Also, folks over in codependent sg at DS offer helpful advice through the discussions there. Thanks and God Bless
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Yes, my experience is similar in that after many years of wishing I could quit, when I finally changed my life so that became to seem more possible, I would still slip from time to time when I'd be around others who smoked. My using friends didn't have the understanding or support I needed so when I'd tell them I'd want to stop as I was leading up to that point, my resolve was not strong enough and I'd indulge with them. I went through a year of casual use in this way, smoking from time to time but not going back to my all day, every day routine I had for years.
The online support group of www.ma-online.org gave me the needed push of accountability and understanding, and for some reason I wasn't confronted with weed for a long time. When I moved to include land MA meetings and realized alcohol was a part of sobriety and included AA, I have not used or drank since (about 5 years). I was DONE. Weed had totally ruled my life, and though there were times I was able to use it and not run to the dealer, I didn't want to take that chance. In recovery I have learned that "We need to fully concede to our INNERMOST self that we are addicts". It's not about convincing others. It's about knowing it ourselves, and letting a higher power and others likeminded help me and me help them, and using a 12 step program is how I remove the obsession or should I say let a higher power remove it for me. Life is good!
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Life is indeed good and community is one of the reasons.
I do not think that telling others takes care of the problem - but I'm trying to be clear and clever. I want my inner journey to be supported by my outward environment, There are no land meetings where I live, but I'm on the Ma site daily. After a lively discussion about what a HP can be, I am working with the concept that mine is called "good common sense," and "good comon sense" told me that predicting in order to prevent a relapse was, well, good, common sense. Blessings to us all!
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