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pot is a confusing drug. 11 days ago i got super motivated to quit weed permanently (i still hold these ambitions)
based on past experiences, I accepted that the next few months would be rough (i always sink into a depression when i stop smoking) but.. to my surprise, I was full of life and creative energy. i felt really, really great. no withdrawals other than very strange, intense dreams. felt on top of the world, as they say. throughout this 11 day period ive been eating healthy, exercising frequently, keeping occupied with various activities, socializing, and, best of all, planning an epic 3 week trip to hawaii. so everything was fantastic. and then.... Thursday morning.... I woke up. everything had changed. the energy? gone. the motivation to do anything? gone. the feelings of hope and excitement toward my new, sober life? gone. and i thought... 'maybe i just didnt sleep well.' so i crashed early last night. and when i woke up: more of the same. shooting hoops didnt help. making red snapper tacos didnt help. taking magnesium didnt help. so now, the depression has returned. i am 1000% sure it is a chemical problem, not a situational one. because situationally, everything is great. so to those who have been sober for long periods of time, when does the depression go away? how long can i expect this to go on? above all, when will my brain chemistry return to normal? Posted on 10/30/09, 10:10 pm |
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just realized there is not an 'edit' button. i meant 100% not 1000%.
im not that much of a f%$^tard 
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Hey FindingTim- don't even sweat it, you're doing so great! Men aren't given the same permission as women to go through emotional highs and lows during the month (or week, year, whatever). 11 days of doing good tells me it's probably not weed related-physically, you're going to have downs, especially since you've completely changed your lifestyle! Try to anticipate riding the highs and lows- you're at a motivational 'low' right now- it'll pass, it'll come back, I promise that's just life, not just weed!
Keep up the good work and stay strong- XO
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thanks for the input. i need to accept that life has its highs and lows, weed or not.
so snookie, i see you are from hawaii. i am about to spend 10 days on Kauai and 12 days on the Big Island. my goal there is to relax and see the most beautiful places possible. do you have any recommendations? any hike under 10 miles is fine.
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Well, I'm not expert on HI, Forsnookie can help you there, but I definately think you should hike the Napali coast!
I am proud of your accomplishments and desire to quit. You look like a helathy, intelligent, handsome young man and the world is yours to explore. Just keep finding personal strength in sobriety. There will be periods of depression in your life. Life is not all fun. Nor should it be. One of many books comes to mind: "Dark Nights of The Soul" by Thomos Moore, to navigate through the joyless days. Life is an all inclusive package of bad and good and struggle and ease, and dark and light. Try not to judge those feelings that come up; pay attention to them. Best of luck and I hope you keep revisiting this site for strength.
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Keep strong and keep reminding me yourself why you wanted to be free of this in the first place. Hell I don't even know you and I am so proud of you, hang in there. Keep with the exercise it will release all those delicious feel good endorphins, good love making wont hurt either. Remember to be good to yourself because your body sure is loving you right now.
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Great advice here - and also, give yourself a break. If you expect negative things ("I ALWAYS sink into a depression when I quit"), then they are going to happen. Try expecting yourself to feel good, instead.
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Great advice from the others. Give yourself credit for what you're doing well....It can take months to get the brain back to functioning normally.
Do you have a support system--people you can share your feelings with? Get one! And check in with them BEFORE you ever pick up, not after!
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Oh hey FindingTIm- Wow- Kauai AND Big Island? Soo nice! Unfortunately I can't help you- I grew up on North Shore side Oahu and my family is from Maui- On Maui we'd say, we 'no need go Big Island cause Maui No Ka Oi (da best!)'
I'm guessing you can't go wrong though is there anywhere NOT to hike in Hawaii? - just be prepared that life is slow on Kauai, not much to do (besides frolicking in paradise that is)- Enjoy yourself to the fullest and leave those heavy thoughts behind on the mainland:D
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ah yes, the infamous Napali Coast. we will definitely try to make that happen (if we can get a permit)
thanks for all the support. my dad is a narcissitic epileptic and my mom has no experience with addiction, so it's nice to have a place like this. but enough about me- how are all you doing? anyone watching the world series?
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It sounds pretty normal to have some ups and downs and especially new in sobriety they may be more extreme. Awesome on the clean days! I guess it's suggested if depression is debilitating and lasts for more than a couple weeks or there are thoughts and or plans for suicide to seek doctors care at once. For me when I get depressed I check my food intake (sugar is a depressant) of course I identify if I am on any pills or alcohol (not on those for a long time now) and see if I'm getting any exercise or enough sleep. Next I check my expression - am I stuffing feelings? Am I keeping things inside? That can lead to depression, especially anger turned inward. Learning anger management is awesome, a way to channel an emotion that can be destructive if not dealt with directly. It can be overwhelming when we get clean to see our lives with more clarity if we're not where we want to be. Also I think this time of year a lot of people get that Seasonal Affective Disorder - I use sunshine early in the day at least 20 minutes to perk up my mood, that is one of the best things for me to keep depression at bay.
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