I am a new member to this site and have been
reading the discussions for a few days now. I am a cross addict and have been smoking pot for 35 years, with a 9 month period of clean time. However I was on various medications at that time which resulted in worse withdrawals then the pot. I have been dx with everything from Clinical deppresion, manic depression bi-polar deppresion etc.I have had severe anxiety on and off for many years now. Over the years I have replaced one addiction with another. One of the most distructive being CG. I am getting therapy and my counsler believes that the pot smoking is the root of all my problems and the bad choices I have made thoughout my life. My question has always been - Was I deppressed and started self medicating with varoius drugs ( pot being my favorite ) or was I an addict and by doing all the drugs I've done caused me to be deppresed ? I know I may never know the answer to that question and I know it probably does not matter, but it's always been in the back of my mind. I want to start a clean life ( that I've never known )Just not sure where to start. I welcome any feedback . Thanks everyone !!!
Posted on 08/16/09, 09:08 am
Hi its been suggested that I have a bipolar disorder and I,m wondering if I just wnt to believe its that instead of the blow chicken or egg doesnt matter its hear now but would love to stop so scared to try its been my lifestyle for so long. any friendships would be appreciated 
