What is Marijuana Addiction
The drug cannabis, commonly known as marijuana, is produced from parts of the cannabis plant, primarily the cured flowers and gathered trichomes of the female plant. The major acti...
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Hi...I'm very new at this and I'm not real sure how it works, so if I'm doing this wrong I'm sorry. I will tell you a little about me. I'm a 28 year old female. I was married at age 18. My husband and I had a beautiful baby boy. He is now 6 and had autism. My husband and I divorced about 6 years ago. I have a 5 year old little girl. She is such a spitfire. Her father wants nothing to do with her. I'm married to a man who has seizures at least 3 times a day. I am also bi polar and off my meds. I was on my meds until about a year ago when I decided to smoke pot. I really enjoyed it, it made me feel so good so I stopped taking my meds. I knew as long as I was smoking pot I would be ok. That didn't last long. I have lost all interest in everything I loved (and there wasn't much in the first place) I go to bed at 6pm every night just so I can get high by myself. My family thinks I am a recreational drug user. So I now sit in my room alone, smoking my money away making excuses why I sleep all day. I hate my life, although I'm not in the least bit suicidal. I know I can't do this anymore, but I also know I can not stop by myself. There has not been a day in the past year that I have not gotten high. I get scared, angry and upset when my stash is low, and I am afraid of what I'm going to go through when I quit. Yet I have the desire to quit NOW. I hope there is someone out there going through this or that has gone through this who can assure me that everyting is going to be ok,....or just someone I can go t ofor advice. Thanks so much.
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I used to isolate and smoke too much day after day and it turned into year after year, and I went into a lot of debt to support my habit.
My life was crumbling around me. I haven't smoked pot in years. I hope you read everything here and especially at www.marijuana-anonymous.org they have some good literature you can read online. You are not alone! 
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Good day Mandy, I have no advice to really offer for I am seemingly in the same predicament. I have no family close to me and have no family of mine own, but I can relate on the hopelessness. I should say my hopelessness for it is my admission. I have not been able to stop. If I do stop, it is because I have no reliable source. LOL. I seem to be rationalizing the fact that I think I can use successfully. I mean keeping my job. I am however becoming more and more saddened by the fact that I won't give it up. Is there help for us?? Surely I believe that I am not totally lost. How come I keep going to those online meetings or stes like this?? Good luck Mandy, I am rooting for you.
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mandy,
hope you are hangin' in there still. because i am counselor, my thought is to get back on your regular meds to balance yourself. and ask for help. so glad you came here to reach out for a hand! MA or NA could help, too. blessings, ellyn
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well I haven't quit yet, I've tried but I just keep thinkin oh well I'll start tomorrow, then I will smoke and the quilt comes. I hate that something has this much control over me.
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Step 1 of the 12 steps of MA
WE admitted that we were powerless over marijuana, that our lives had become unmanageable. The rest of the steps fall into place, and taking them becomes a good way of life for those of us who choose to do them, with the help of a 12 step program.
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