Life After Divorce Support Group

i left my husband about 5 months ago, we have since divorced and i am worried that i made the wrong decision. we were married for six years and we were high school sweethearts. during our marriage he never showed any form of emotion or tenderness towards me; it was like he didn't know how to hug or even say hello to me when i came home from work. i know that his family was never really loving towards him and he admitted to being in a very bad spot mentally during our marriage and that is why he acted the way that he did. i tried so many different ways to make him happy and i always thought that i was the problem since he never talked to me about anything. he would notice that i was upset and his solution to the problem was to drink and or use drugs. i still do drink occasionally but since i have left him i no longer use drugs. my father has always hated him for never having a job and always said that he was using me and my father; we lived in the upstairs of my father's house because i couldn't afford an apartment. i would always pay his bills including his child support, now i am in debt because i was too busy paying his bills that i allowed mine to go to creditors. i miss him tremendously and in the beginning it seemed like i made the right decision but now i am unsure. he says that he has changed and will never go back to the way he was because he knows he will lose me. i don't know whether to believe him and go back to him or not. i have started dating someone else who is completely wonderful and fills all my needs and is nice to me. i have told him how i feel and he is understanding and just says that we will work through this and everything will be wonderful. i am unsure and terrified that i lost something special. he did some bad things but i still love him and everyday it is harder to wake up knowing that he's not there. please help me
Posted on 11/05/09, 09:11 pm