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So about two years ago i played a video game called "thief" i become obssesive and would play the game over and over agian. the purpose of the game is to steal stuff. after a while the game wasent enough i had to steal real stuff i dont know why and everything i stole i dident need but i still had to steal it. eventually i stopped for about 2 months. but over the last 4 months its started again but worse. i took some test and theres a 99% chance that i have bipolar disorder, borline personaillity disorders and bordline scizophriena (im going to the doctors soon). how is this relvent well when my mood changes to clincaly deppressed and sucidal
and i steal i feel happy again and i dont fell sucidal then when my mood changes into mania or happy and i steal i feel fantastic just stealing anything makes me feel great almost orgasmic. but when i dont steal i get even more deppressed and a voice comes into my head and he makes my cut my arm up with a razor blade for not stealing he says its "punishment" or somthing. i feel like i have to steal i love everything about it. but sometimes i want a break i want stop but i cant i have to even if i dont need what i take i still have to take
it. i never get caught and im pretty good at it. the problem is now i want to steal bigger things i can pick alomst any lock i come across (i have tools) i now how to shut off alarms and break into safes and i think i might do somthing soon just for the rush. so just wondering if im addicted or just really wierd.
Posted on 05/04/08, 01:05 am

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Reply #1 - 05/04/08 4:25am

Hey, I don't think you are weird at all.

I know how you feel. It is an addictive and complusive disorder to steal.

I commend you for posting on here, I know its not easy.

Do you have support?

Reply #2 - 05/04/08 4:39am

No i have no support in fact your the first person ive told.

Reply #3 - 05/04/08 4:56am

What are you hoping to do, having told me?

I know that even though I've admitted to it on here, I am still stealing :(

Reply #4 - 05/04/08 5:06am

I dont know what to do i steal every day and its the only reason i get up in the moring. if i dont steal well ive got nothing to live for cos its the only thing that gets me happy (from the adrenaline).

Reply #5 - 05/04/08 5:22am

It's a high risk behaviour doing it every day. And what makes it harder is that by the sounds of it is that it covers an area in your life that would otherwise leave you feeling down.

It would be easy to say to you find support, talk to people etc but I know how damn difficult it is to talk to anyone.

All I can suggest is finding alternatives to stealing, to come up with a list of things to do instead of going out.

And talk, talk, talk on here..

Reply #6 - 05/04/08 5:48am

Its the only thing that makes me happpy there is no other alternative. is why i get up in the moring its why i havent killed myself its why im still happy and its why im still alive. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO.
i cant stop... im a nobody i dont see my freinds i hate my family and for that matter most of my friends i have difficulty with realotionships i dont understand human contact in any way. in other words im a complete loner.

Reply #7 - 05/04/08 6:04am

I see that you are from N.Z, what part?

I can give you all the advice I want, but at the end of the day it is up to you to seek help. I suggest a counselloer/doctor/psych, a professional who can at least guide you on the path to recovery.

What will you do if you get caught?

I can see that this is your life for you at the moment, and that stealing keeps you from what sounds like a dark place.

Have you ever rung Youthline or Lifeline? They are great for talking to, and just saying whatever you need to, to a stranger.

I am off to bed now, but thank you for sharing, it shows you have courage.

Reply #8 - 05/04/08 6:10am

Thanks ill see a doctor later this week

Reply #9 - 05/04/08 11:06pm

Do you think you will see a doctor? Admitting to someone in the flesh can be really hard, but if you make it, it shows courage on your behalf. :)