I absolutely KNOW you can, and will, be able to put it behind you. Can you do it by yourself, I don't know. For myself, I couldn't. I am doing it one day at a time through therapy and 12 step work in AA. I need the help and suport of others because my mind is a dangerous place to be alone and I tend to make the wrong decisions regarding booze, alcohol, etc. The therapy has been immensely helpful because I have discovered that the majority of my huffing has been to try to numb myself entirely from feeling pain. Therapy has allowed me to work through a lot of those issues, and with their resolution has come the end of needing to
avoid feelings. It has been a wonderful relief. If you are acting out in this way, there may be more work to be done. Just a thought. I huffed so much so fast for a bit that I was semi-paralyzed and lost my ability to speak. I also lost a bit of cognitive ability. You raise the concern of
school and the future. I do know that this behavior of ours is so destructive. In fact, many subsatnce abuse experts sayt this is the most deadly. Of course that may have been a part of the attraction for me on some level in my mind. I did recover, I can think, speak, write, and live a beautiful life, now with just the occasional foot cramp or muscle twitch, so we CAN heal, IF we knock this shit off in time! I
hope you will be able to reach out and get help because it is a lot to try to tackle on our own. Know that you have found one resource here, where we try to help and support one another, and please keep reaching out here!
