I am having the hardest time being a good sister right now! Last march I was PG for 5 days and my due date was 11/29. My sister is due on 11/15. I cry very often right now. My other sister is due near my birthday on 2/15/10. I know I am blessed to be having two new nieces/cousins for my son, but what I really want is a sister or brother for him!! I sometimes feel like my heart is being ripped out. We bought meds last spring for a 3rd round of
IVF but due to my health we have not been able to start. . . and marriage troubles this fall made it look like I would never attempt to conceive again . . . I gave the meds back to the clinic so someone could use them before they expired . . . It was awful . . . I felt like I was giving them back a baby!! I am so maudlin right now in this post, but am lavishing support and love on my sisters as much as I can (planning baby shower for the younger one). Thankfully my marriage seems to be getting on track and we have hopes for my health to improve. Thanks for letting me unburden myself. Sometimes I just feel like I will dissolve in tears but most times I keep perspective and remember that I am lucky to even have one son.
Posted on 11/06/09, 04:11 pm
I am so sorry. It is not that you are not happy for them, you are sad for you. You have every right to be sad. Yes, you are blessed to have a son but that does not mean it does not hurt that you lost a baby and had to go through IF. You are in my thoughts. 
